Forever the Name on My Lips

There is this song I have been listening to on repeat tonight. It's one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard and as soon as I heard it for the first time it immediately reminded me of someone. As I was packing up to move across the country I realized I still had soo many of his clothes. I even had one of his shirts on at that exact moment. I took it off and don't want the memories to go with me. Right now they are sitting in a garbage bag in my room but the memories started to haunt me. It ultimately all began when I had just turned 25, seems ages ago, and he had strep throat and couldn't make it to my birthday party. This was a friend of mine and we really didn't plan of this happening but you can't control attraction. I eventually fell in love with him. I just found out yesterday that he and his girlfriend, who I like a lot, are getting an apartment. I don't know why but for a second I felt hurt. It was brief but it did occur. I don't have any feelings for this man anymore but I still have love for him as a friend. And I think that's all it was. I snapped out of it real fast. I am in love with someone else who is just wonderful but I couldn't help go back in time.........


I still remember the look on your face
Been through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you did

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips, ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips, just like our last...

I just want you to know that I am soo happy we had what we had for the time we had it. I wish the best to you and who ever may end up with. You'll always have a place in my heart. It's sooo weird because things weren't always smooth, of course you know they couldn't be, and I always wonder if we started out on a different foot what may have happened? I wrote you the other night to say goodbye and you never wrote back. I understand. I hope you get a chance to read this. Never thought we'd have a last kiss......

Love, Sarah