Beanie trying to break up Bey and Jay-Z with song

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A real man doesnt threaten... a real man just says it. I hate it when artists do this... Oh I could make Bey look at Jay different. Well do it then you weak ass... looks to me like someone is just doing a bit of self promotion. Anyways...here is the video with the diss song and below Beanie explain why he did it. YAWN!

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MTO attack Kelly Rowland

MTO has attacked Kelly for her cellulite saying she is now covering up at the beach to hide it. Im sorry but I dont believe this crap...... why is Kelly using her hand like a phone???? She pretending to ring Mathew Knowles telling him about his cheating ass baby making self... I wonder if Mathew Knowles is going to sabotage Kelly's career aswell.

Kanye and Beyonce

Kanye West's Glow in the Dark tour book is available for purchase at your local book retailer. The book features Kanye and the other artists of the tour both back and on stage.

Mr. West  Queen B

Edited: By Soulgirl

Mathew's new baby

Still no news yet of Mathew Knowles and his paternity test. It looks as if we have a few months to wait until the baby is born.

My question is... if Mathew is proved to be the father then will he think about making a Beyonce Number 2???? Interesting concept and a new generation for him to work on. Old stank fool.

Omarion confirms Illuminate Connections

I don’t personally know Rihanna’s beliefs but I think there’s a very dark and very sinister part of the entertainment business and I think it’s very visible,” he said. “This is something that a lot of people don’t look at [but for example] Michael Jackson used to be a Jehovah’s Witness and I remember hearing that he wanted to separate from the religion — and this was during the time that he was doing ‘Thriller’ [which ended up being] his biggest album.”

Fast forward to now [and] it really made me think that there is a [time as an artist] where there’s going to be a choice. The[entertainment] world [dictates] that you have to be with three or four women, or do this in order to get that [and] I think it’s really interesting. With God and the industry, it’s really dark. The dark side is having to get in, there’s a certain submission you need to have. Just like a gang [initiation], so to speak. You might have to do something against your moral code. I’m not saying that it’s always this way, but when you’re someone that is young and you’re coming up in the industry and you really don’t have a grip on your morals it can be very dark. The game is just about over saturation.

I don’t know if Rihanna [has fallen victim to those pressures]. I’ve never really heard her speak about it. I hope that she doesn’t believe in that stuff and I don’t think that she does, but I don’t know. It’s not just been a Rihanna thing, [there's has been religious speculation] about a lot of artists.

Lets be straight on this... Jay-Z and Beyonce are high in the stakes of being connected with the Illuminate. Jay-Z is Rihanna's mentor... you think she isnt caught up in all that madness? Open your eyes people...Im glad somebody has stepped up to say something. All I can now advise Omarion to do is watch his back!

If you look at the picture above you will see that it is Rihanna's left eye we are being shown and interesting enough the make up is used in the following way:

The left eye represents the All-Seeing Eye. The most important symbol of the Illuminati, Freemasonry and the Vatican Church State – the Holy See. The All-Seeing Eye is the official omniscience ritual worship sign of Lucifer, the Fallen Arch Angel.

Again we see this left eye with Jay-Z. If you check the side of this page in the tags menu...you will see a link for my Illuminate posts. Educate yourself if you havent done already.

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Beyonce to perform on X Factor AGAIN??? FFS

We had enough of her last year when she made the winner Alexandra Burke, turn into a nervous wreck on stage. Do we really need her on again? My answer is NO NO NO!

Beyonce Vampire Makeover

She would make a hot Vampire!

Beyonce gets booed!!!!!!!!!!

The opening night of the Yas Marina concerts was a bootylicious affair indeed. Set in the shell of the half-finished Ferrari World, the venue looked spectacular – more like a recreation of the Bladerunner backdrop than a concert venue. The sound, too, was surprisingly good, with any unwanted echo – the curse of vast aerodromes like this one – kept to a minimum. Only the dusty floor and outdoor heat proved difficult.


Beyonce took the stage 25 minutes late, by which point some of the audience had started to turn nasty. Loud boos filled the front of the arena, and, to the side of this reviewer, the heat overwhelmed a couple of fainters and a small fight erupted. Not the kind of atmosphere you might expect at a family-friendly pop concert, but almost understandable after an hour and a half packed in like sweaty sardines.

Solange - Honey Magazine cover girl

A couple of excerpts:

Five words that the public would use to describe you?
The general perception is that I am crazy, maybe? That I am attention-seeking, but I think everyone can say that I'm smart. At least I think I a come across smart. I don't really know (laughs) because I don't really care.

What is your favorite hangover cure?
I'm typically one of those people who's never hung over. I really try to be responsible with my drinking. I just kind of deal with it.

Who's closet would you raid if you had the chance to do it?
Probably Bjork. It would be a tie between her and Grace Jones, but I think I'd have to go with Bjork because over the years there have been so many different phases and extremes and color. I am a person who loves color and I think it's the most beatiful backdrop for life.

http://www.honeymag.com/message/story/view.castle?g=679901&m=7714958

the full interview can be found at the above link.

"you must regret the day that you left me"

Grammy award winning singer LeToya Luckett has joined forces with Ludacris to shoot the video for her hit single "Regret". The song which is currently in the Top 5 on the R&B chart was directed by Parris. Ludacris plays LeToya's new love interest while the male model who was the boyfriend in the "She Ain't Got.." video is back, but this time as the ex with regrets.

In other LeToya news this email below claiming to be written by a Music World Entertainment employee has been making it's rounds on the internet.

"I am just pissed off with this shady business and I've been closer to God lately so I feel I have to throw this out there. I'm going to give you a little more of my experience. So...Mathew is in a perpetual fight. I don't understand what he's trying to prove but I guess that's what keeps his life exciting. You think he would have moved on by now but on the contrary, he's totally obsessed with this LeToya Luckett girl. Wasting time making sure radio stations don't play her songs, and particularly right now making sure "Regret" doesn't get any bigger than it already is.

I absolutely don't understand why he thinks her success would overshadow Beyonce's/ Beyonce is aware of what's going on but she's not saying anything to stop her dad. I told her to say something but she said to me " I trust my dad". Anyway, look at the Urban radio charts, LeToya is #5. That's a pretty good number but you can notice that the most important radio stations aren't playing it. Thanks to who? You guessed it right. Rumors you've probably heard before are true. Mathew is paying these stations' music directors to boycoott her. these expenses are covered up as a trip to go see Beyonce's tour for review. What's nice is that these stations' music directors can pick two to three dates anywhere in the world and travel for free. Mathew of course pays for travel expenses as well as $850 "courtesy checks" for.... meals.

The funny part is some of them just get the free vacation and don't bother showing up at Beyonce's concert. ____ was not hard to convince thanks to their ties with JAy-Z. It was a little harder to convince ___ and ____ (asking for bigger courtesy checks) but in the end they accepted the offer. Thumbs up go to KMEL who almost spit at my face and refused to collaborate.

I'm putting this to light because I'm tired of this payola bullshit. You might find all of this outrageous but these are common practices in the music industry... and this is only the tip of the iceberg."

So what do ya'll think? Is there some truth with all of these sabotage rumors?

Beyonce and Jay-z big tippers

Beyonce and husband Jay-z dine on Italian fare at Nello’s restaurant with an older couple on the Upper East Side of New York City on Monday (October 26).
The high-rollers dropped a massive $1,200 on lunch, which included white truffles, lobster salad and a bottle of Dom Perignion champagne. To show their appreciation for the great service, Beyonce and Jay-Z left a hefty $500 tip. I guess now their flaunting their money huh. Now think about that when you eating McDonalds.

Do you want Diva sunglasses?

Well JustJared is giving away a pair. Click the link for JustJared to find out how you can get these unwearable glasses!

Michelle Williams IN A CAR ACCIDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Former DESTINY'S CHILD singer MICHELLE WILLIAMS was involved in a minor traffic accident on Tuesday (27Oct09) when she clipped the side of a bus.
The R&B star was in her native Chicago, Illinois when she damaged her car in the morning accident.
She writes on her Twitter.com page, "I hit a bus and have 2 (sic) get my side mirror fixed."
No injuries were reported in the incident.

Beyonce and Jay out and about!

WTF is Julius doing behind that tree? Has he been to some secret detective classes or something??? Hardly inconspicious
Apparently the tipped $500

Ga-oynce

Ga-oyonce is coming and there is nothing you can do to stop it! Beyonce and Lady Gaga will be collaborating on not just VideoPhone and TelePhone... but also future singles together. I dont know if this is a good idea or a bad idea. Seems Beyonce loves riding off the coat tails of who is hot at the specific time...

50 Cent Begged Kelly to star in his music video

And we all know why! No one is checking for his ass no more so they had to get Kelly involved.... interesting selection. Says alot for what Kelly is doing at the moment:

50 CENT "begged" R&B beauty KELLY ROWLAND to star in his new music video after a chance meeting in California.
The hip-hop star was getting ready to film the promo for his upcoming single Baby By Me when he ran into Rowland in Los Angeles.
The encounter made 50 Cent - real name Curtis Jackson - determined to hire the singer as his onscreen love interest, and he refused to let her leave town until she agreed.
He says, "I actually ran into her, I said, 'Wow! It'll be great if I could get her to come tomorrow (and film the video).' Kelly was getting ready to fly back to Miami. I was lucky enough to catch her. I kinda (sic) begged my way into her doing it. I didn't want to do the normal video situation, where you have the vixen or somebody no one knows from anywhere. I think it intensifies the whole song."

We are being held to ransom!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.destinyschildrumors.com/ has hijacked our site and now they are trying to hold me to ransom!

I recieved this email today from them. Please keep in mind that me and this person did NOT have any agreement.

Dear Ms. XXXXXXXXXX

I am the head Executive Internet Management from Star News Network (basically the person who writes LeToya News, they are pretending to be a "host" but the email came from their inbox), I have been forwarded your emails and wish to address the current situation.

By agreeing to join destinyschildrumors.com, any content posted by you on our site is property of destinyschildrumors.com. You are breaching the agreement between Star News Network and yourself by leaving without notice. You have no rights to any of the content present on this website and it belongs to Star News Network. If you had any problems with the website you could have easily reported in an email stating your feelings and things could have been settled from there. Communication would have been the key to address this matter. We have always been there for you to answer your questions.

Destinyschildrumours.blogspot.com and Destinyschildrumors.com are two separate websites that can legally co-exist. Any content posted on our website always belonged to Star News Network; therefore legally speaking, anything that you brought belongs to Star News Network. You can bring this to a legal matter but you will waste your time and your money because you have no case backing your argument.

However, we are willing to settle with you. If you still want us to remove our information then you can return the money that we invested in you to run this website which is $25.

Please note that you are more then welcome to come back because we love your writing and your style, that is why we initially asked you to come work for us.

If you have any questions on this matter please respond to this email address and pursue all further matters through me.

Head Executive of Internet Management

Are you kidding me??????? They want me to pay them!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the agreement we had when they first approached me in their own words:

I also strongly suggest we move you to wordpress pro which offers much more customisations possible. (Like for example: much better layout and organisation, translation widget which translate your page automaticly in the langage depending of the country you visiting the site from, etc...)

All that would cost you money on your own but I can have you all that for free under my host.

Also maybe we could create a family. Maybe something like "Star News Network".(which would includes all the same type of sites as us). Each site would still be independent and be able to leave the alliance at any time. We'd just start with us 2 and see we could have other existing sites (some rihanna news/rumours site and other big artists news/rumours site) join the entity so we can build each others's views and be recognized as a powerful brand in the internet world. so it would go a little further than basic site affiliates.

Being together means we can share stuff. Like we have an account to wireimage (which have pics for every events possible) so you could get all that as well.

Please boycott this site.... I am taking legal action against this moron. Thoughts please....

UPDATE: In response to one of the comments. The reason I left abruptly was because that person went onto my site and edited a whole bunch of posts without my permission and advertising things I did not give permission for. I left because they were comprimising my site with their weird information. There was nothing in our correspondance to say I had to give notice. Why the hell should I if they are abusing their rights?

First Ever Destinys Child Video Before "No No No"

It's called Can't Stop..The Main artist is Lil O.

I think I like the 90's Beyonce voice better than the Pop Star Beyonce Voice.

Thoughts?

Never a Clean Break, No One Here To Save Me

Love makes the world go round. Love makes people crazy. Love makes you do things you never thought you would. Love brightens up your days. Love leaves you crying rereading love letters all night and cursing their name. Love makes you feel like you're on top of the world but when that world crumbles it can takes months to be able to see the light again. Love is love. There's nothing like it. And we cannot live without it.

I am about as much of a hopeless romantic as you can get. I am truly in love with love. Now I am NOT a girl who has to have a bf every single minute, even though some may disagree. But nothing beats waking up with the giggles and smiling so excited to see the person. Running into their embrace and feeling a million butterflies flutter around your stomach. Looking at them in disbelief that just this one person can make you soo happy. Hey it's magical and I do believe in fairytales, happily ever afters, and soulmates. I believe you can have several soulmates out there. But you'll find them. I believe you have to go after what you want and fight for it. Don't give up on love just because you think love gave up on you.

Did you ever have that crush, well that really never gave you the time of day, but you held your head high and had hope? You'd sing love songs all day, dubbing his name into the songs, and talk with your friends about how great everything is going to be? Ohhh these are my favorite because they soo innocent and glorious. I haven't had one of these since Adam. And after a year of singing about this boy and finally getting my kiss with him, I was all Adam'd out. I could finally set down my journal, stop crying, and move on. But for that, I just needed that kiss.
I never thought my first love, Pete, would ever leave me so when he did I truly didn't know what to do with myself and I finally did some of the insane activities that I've seen other girls so and roll my eyes. I was horrible to Pete but I was also madly in love with him and he was madly in love with me. But there was something off in this romance. I think he might have loved me a tad more and I did NOT treat him the way I should have. He treated me like a true princess. So after it was REALLY over, I went to his house when no one was home, sat in his room and cried, collected my things, and wrote a four page love letter on yellow paper with pencil. Collected myself and calmly placed the letter along with the "love mix" I had made him of like "our songs" and drove away. I was left scared and seriously wasn't finally healed until a couple years later. But now I look back and he's soo wonderful and I learned the best lesson that you can learn. Don't treat others the way you wouldn't want to be treated.

And then there are the ones that you can't stop loving even though you would give anything to quit. I fell in love with him the 1st date we went on in 2003. He went to high school with all of my girlfriends so he was always around and often came to my college to visit. He was soo sweet and so adorable. I've never had so much in common with someone. We even shared the same dream hahaha! Ohh my gosh I am laughing so hard just thinking of all the crazy things me and this boy do. We're crazy! And I can't even stand straight when he is around. Yes, even after seven years he still makes my knees this weak. We've been through very good and very bad times. We're either perfectly in love or were not speaking. We're never fully together, we are both serial daters. But at the end of the day he's all I want. Right now, I'm feeling invisible and the fights have been horrendous and my heart a bit torn. But I know he loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world! I know he belongs with me. And these lyrics are soo our relationship "Ohh I remember you driving to my house, in the middle of the night. I'm the one who makes you laugh, when you know your about to cry. I know your favorite songs, and you tell me about your dreams. I think I know where you belong......Think I know it's with meeeee!!!" *just had to throw in a little T. Swift in there.

Also please take my advise on this one and DO NOT have secret relationships. We all do it and have you ever seen it end well......absolutely not! Yeah he was great, soo fun, and maybe I even fell in love with him. But after so long, the secret has to come out and fights start and it's the most dramatic of dramatic endings because you never thought something so innocent and fun would turn into this horrible nightmare and your heart would be on the line.

I talked about like 2 relationships but as my mother would say "Sarah, for me to keep up with all of your boyfriends. I would need a big notebook and a pen."

No matter what. Keep your head up.......fall madly in love again even though you've been hurt before. Let yourself fall for someone, even though they are in love with somebody else. Love someone despite what people may think. No matter what loves throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories, and happily ever afters. I do and I wouldn't change it for anything <3

"How do you think I feel. I haven't slept, I feel sick like theres something in my stomach. Fluttering." -Chuck Bass on love

Peace and Love
S

Lady GaGa talks about working with Beyonce

 

lthough details are still scarce about just what Beyoncé and Lady Gaga will be doing to in the clip for B's song "Video Phone," Gaga did talk about the clip in a new interview.

When I was doing her video with her, she called me and she said, 'What do you want to do?' " Gaga explained in an interview with New York's Z100 radio station on Tuesday morning (October 27). "And I'm like, 'I don't want to show up in some frickin' hair bow and be fashion Gaga in your video.' I said, 'I want to do you.' "

In a photo that emerged from the video shoot, Gaga was seen wearing a white strapless leotard with matching opera gloves, and her long hair is loose and flowing — the look is definitely more Beyoncé than Gaga. In fact, Gaga even scored a new nickname while on set. "I want to do my version of Beyoncé," she said. "So the whole time I was learning the choreography they were calling me Gee-yoncé."

As if fans weren't psyched enough about the video, Gaga did say that she and Beyoncé are working on music together. No additional details were given, however.

"We did collaborate recently," she said, referencing the "Video Phone" video, adding, "And we are collaborating on my album, as well." It was unclear whether Gaga was referring to the forthcoming expanded edition of her debut LP, The Fame: Monster, or her still-in-the-works second album.

Al-Quaeda After Beyonce!

Oh hell no! I dont think so:

The Muslim Brotherhood In Egypt is a political organization that once included Sayyid Qutb, the man who inspired Al-Qaeda. It was founded to promote Islamic law, oppress women etc. And now it wants to keep Beyonce out of Egypt!

Knowles is scheduled to perform her first ever concert in the land of fezes, camels carpets, pyramids and other obvious, slightly condescending cliches on November 6. Tickets for the show, at the Red Sea resort of Port Ghalib, are going for up to $400, according to a report on Al Arabiya.

But straight outta Cairo, a crazy Islamist MP named Hamdi Hassan, from a gang called The Muslim Brotherhood In Egypt, said he did not want no ho who appears nekkid in no goddamned videos up in his motherfucking hood. (I can't speak Arabic, so I'm choosing to assume this is the way he originally phrased it.) He wants regulators to mount up and get her permission to perform revoked.

"The government is trying to make people indulge in sin and licentiousness to cover up the other crimes it is committing against them," said Hassan in parliament, once again proving that the word 'licentiousness' is only used in such circumstances.

The Brotherhood is under pressure from that government. And various old-school religious nutjobs are fighting with hip, young religious nutjobs within its ranks. So this is seen as a way of making a statement and reminding people that hijabs are good, and booty-shaking is bad.

Last year another spittle-flecked crackpot in Egypt, a cleric called Khaled al-Gindi, likened Shakira to a prostitute and demanded she be banned. But added that he thought she was probably a "nice person." Which makes it all OK because everyone likes a hooker with a heart of gold.

Email: Beyonce and Kelly NOT TALKING AT ALL!

Hey Soulgirl

I worked within the MWE camp and now I am working with Kelly Rowland on her up and coming album. I am part of her team driving things through. I think some fans might be under the wrong impression of Beyonce and Kelly's relationship. Yes they were "sisters", they grew up together, they were friends and they formed the biggest girl group of all time. However, that is now where their friendship ends. When Kelly left MWE management, so did her friendship with Solange and Beyonce. Solange was already warring with Kelly over music that was being distributed. Solange did not like the direction Kelly was going in and Kelly had got past caring. Things escalated with Mathew Knowles and Kelly decided to leave for pastures new where she thought she would get more attention and pushed better as an artist. As soon as this happened Kelly just became another LeToya and LaTavia to Beyonce. Her purpose was finished.
Beyonce has not contacted Kelly for weeks .... their relationship has broken down and Kelly is also past caring what Beyonce thinks. We wont even entertain false meet up to keep their DC image going. You wont be seeing a reunion anytime soon. Kelly is about to show the world what she can do without Mathew and none of the Knowles are going to like it. Forget Sasha Fierce... Kelly changing up her image!

This is from the reliable source who told me of Kelly's departure a month before anyone else knew. I have to ask myself...when was the last time I saw Kelly with Beyonce????? Kelly's Bday.... I hope Kelly does switch up her style and give everyone something to talk about. Everyone trying  to be a Superhero right now... she needs to flip the game.

Solange and LeToya to meet on Red Carpet?

As our new writer Ti-Ti recently posted...Solange is going to be at the Soul Train awards...and guess who is co-hosting the Red Carpet Special... you got it! LeToya Luckett.

Could it be that LeToya interviews Solange??? This would be a massive step if the two girls were seen together and talking amicably. Maybe a step to DC reforming.... damn I will live in hope.

Michelle Williams get shoes stolen!

R&B singer MICHELLE WILLIAMS has blasted a top courier service after company bosses failed to recover a piece of her missing luggage.

The former Destiny's Child star had one of her bags misplaced after flying back to her native U.S. from London, where she had been performing in West End play Chicago.

International courier firm DHL was allegedly responsible for returning the luggage to her, but Williams claims she is still waiting for her bag to be sent back - and she's losing hope of finding her belongings, including her designer shoes, in one piece.

In a series of posts on her Twitter.com page, she writes, "Thanks 2 DHL 4 (sic) finding my bag... NOT! Someone n (in) England is tippin (walking) in my Jimmy Choos as we speak! Time 4 (sic) new ones I guess!

"Now I have a complex whenever I travel. I know u (sic) shouldn't be attached to material things but my shoes mean everything 2 (sic) me! I'm n (in) mourning

Kelly Rowland and 50Cent Behind The Scenes of Baby!

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Kelly looks so hot!

Beyonce "VideoPhone" Shoot!

Check it out people... Beyonce is coming for us again with Video Phone!
Thanks to Brown Sista!

Baldy..oops I mean Solange is Nominated for New Artist at the Soul Train Awards...WHAT!!!

She is not a new artist. She has put out 2 albums. I guess people are just now starting to recognize the nobody.

Kelly Rowland going to EMI?

Kelly Rowland has been in talks with EMI about releasing a new record in 2010.

The ex-Destiny's Child star split with manager Mathew Knowles in January and was dropped by Columbia Records in March.

However, Angry Ape quotes singer-producer Rico Love as saying: "She's in the process of closing a pretty big deal. I believe she's doing her deal right now.

"I don't think she's going to say yet. She's got the number one song in the world with David Guetta [called] 'When Love Takes Over'."

Love added: "I'm actually going to be doing the majority of her record. I believe we're going to finish the album over the Christmas break."

Interesting!!! Kelly needs to get a deal soon.... come on girl we need new music STAT!

OMG! You done lost your mutha friggin mind!

The person who gave me the DCR.com site has now stolen my site and my banner and everything. Please boycott that site... it is someone trying to ride of the fame of this place....
This sickens me!

Beyonce and Lady Gaga

Upon receiving Lady GaGa's help for "Video Phone" music video, Beyonce Knowles will return the favor by lending her vocal to the dance queen's new song "Telephone". Breaking the news to public is Lady-Gaga.net which claims the information is obtained from an insider in Universal Music Group. Beyonce and Lady GaGa filmed "Video Phone" earlier this month and kept the video shoot hush-hush. However, a source managed to spill the beans on the wardrobe they were wearing.
Lady GaGa Beyonce reportedly donned "a feathered dress" and Lady GaGa wore "something wild". Premiere date for the video is yet to be disclosed. Words are, the song featured in the video will be a remix with the addition of Lady GaGa's vocal. "Telephone" is one of the new materials appearing in Lady GaGa's "The Fame: Monster" which is due for November 23 U.S. release, while "Video Phone" is one of Beyonce Knowles' singles in her 2008 effort "I Am...Sasha Fierce".

Wipe Their Eyes, And..........Part II

Nothing can prepare you for an eating disorder clinic. Although my disease has nothing to do with the terms anorexia and bulimia, COPE was the best place for me to be placed due to age and weight. My 1st weigh in read 83 pounds. And at 83 pounds at 5'5'', well basically I could have dropped dead any moment. I sure as hell didn't care and would have taken a heart attack that ended in death like a million dollars. Just so I can kind of place you in my thought of mind then.....let's just say it wasn't pretty. So finally after everything on the deck of WPIC had taken place, I was lead to the 8th floor. Tears streaming as I walked into my bright, cheerfully decorated, dorm looking, new home(I had noooo idea how long I would be in there for at this time. I was thinking around 3 days.) There were gorgeous thin girls everywhere, some snobby, some not, all in the end became my best friends. Before I got the chance to mingle I dropped my suitcase in my adorable room and hugged my mother and father goodbye. They would see me the next day for visiting hours. I had no clue that for the next 2 months, this was where I would reside.

This is really hard for me to write about this and if I have to cut it short, I am truly sorry. If you ever met me......and haven't really gone through much, you probably wouldn't be able to see all the sadness that I carried around. I was still highly entertaining, could always make people laugh, and was a joy to be around. After a week or so, I was just loving COPE. It was like freshman year all over again. I had a crush on two boys that worked there, borrowed and exchanged clothes with my fellow copemates so we could look hot, even thought we were locked up haha, and talked fashion, boys, and Hollywood drama. We were all beautiful and wonderfully sickening thin(our minds being so distorted at this time we REALLY couldn't see what we looked like), and all wanted to die. There was one thing that we all had in common even though everyone was on for various reasons......we wanted the FUCK out of COPE!

A day at COPE:
Getting weighed, eating a TON of food(when I left I was up to having to eat 4,200 calories a day), meeting with our psychiatrist, trying new drugs, crying, screaming, talking on the phone(yes we had a payphone for our friends to call in on and we had a cordless for us to call out on. Both were ALWAYS in use so we could bitch and cry and try to get someone to get us out), hugging and holding each other while the other cried, smiling when everyone smiled, playing constant games, my fav being Yahtzee, and making different food creations to piss of the nurses. People with ED's make their food very very very small by cutting and crushing. I've never scene anything like it but it was great to pick up on while there. Made those thousands of calories go down a little faster. Sometimes you just could not eat anymore and had to exchange your meal for ensure plus. This poison liquid that is 350 cal. for 8 ounces. We also had a zillion groups per day. We did have fun things as well.....such as yoga, spa, cope cinema(nothing R rated though!), and we had each other who we grew very very close with.

My time there was like a rollercoaster and if I had to really tell it, I truly don't know if I could. I don't know if it was the state of mind that I was in or the fact the I was severely malnutritioned, but there was definitely a block placed over last years nov-march. I just remember working a ton, not eating, and taking a lot of pills just to get through the day.

This is all very much out of order......but there were high points of COPE. We laughed until we cried, played crazy fun music and sang at the top of our lungs, pretended we were on a beach during spa, played on perez hilton, cried with eachother, laughed with eachother, ate hospital food with eachother. We had 6 meal times a day!

I will say this much. Being an inpatient with constant care and watch had in someway saved my life. I know for one thing, I had one of the most unbelievable psychiatrist who never gave up on me and believed that he could fix the way my brain was not responding to medications and I still lived in a world of infinite sadness. It may have taken 8 week and 25 pounds of weight gained but something snapped after those 6 weeks. He put me on a medication that literally SAVED me. And now I'm crying, I began smiling and actually would go through whole days not thinking about suicide. And this trend has only gotten better with time. Finally I got to leave.....after a lovely 8 weeks. I had no idea how sick I was when I entered but I was getting better, had a great group of new friends that had been in and out who I could talk to now, a psychiatrist that believed in me, and a new me that wanted to live again.

My hospital bracelet was clipped off and is now in my memory box, my 200+ Get Well cards from friends and family are kept in a special place in my room and I still read them often, and all my gifts from my amazing friends are home now and in full use. I especially love all of my drawings from COPE made by other patients when I was having a bad day. We were VERY supportive of eachother.

And here I am now.......Cope being an ancient memory. But not really at all. When something like that has such an import on your life, theres not a day that goes by that I don't think of it. I don't think I deserve to feel the way I do now. Just to be happy and smile. To sing in the car. To giggle when I wake up. To be able to leave the house. TO BE A HAPPY NORMAL PERSON!!!!! So many little things people take for granted, like smiling, is huge for me. I haven't truly smiled since I can remember.

PLEASE once again. There are so many great crisis lines, therapists, psychiatrists, outpatient and inpatient programs. I NEVER thought the latter would be the only option that would save me but it did and I am not embarrassed to say it! I love life now and that's what matters. Please if you need to speak with anyone I am always here or if you know anyone in trouble try to help. Thank you all for being so supportive of this piece. It was very hard for me to write both of these but I am soo glad I got it out there. SMILE, DREAM, & LIFE! Lifes too short!!!

Love and Peace

S

Wipe Their Eyes, And Then Let Go

*This is a true story that I am putting myself on the line to help others. Do not read if you are a person who judges because this is real life and real situations. Thank you.

It all started when I was 15. I had no idea what was going on and why I had felt like this. Felt like dying. I had no idea on the subject and the only case of suicide I had even heard of was that of Kurt Cobain. (I loved Nirvana's music back then but it wasn't until I was much older did I decide to study Kurt and why he did what he did. And people can ask me why I really feel a connection to him and to me it's obvious. We had something very serious in common.) I began crying a lot, cutting myself(people always say eww to this but if you've ever been where I was, you will see its quite normal for the depressed to want to try to disguise the mental pain by inflicting physical pain upon yourself), losing weight, and not socializing. I couldn't tell anyone what was going on because I didn't know what it was. How do you tell your parents that you're thinking about death every hour that you are awake? I went out and bought the book Prozac Nation. Kept it under my bed and read. I learned I was suffering from the disease Depression. I told my parents and was placed on Prozac and within a month I felt normal again. It wouldn't be until I was the age of 21, did the disease strike again.

While at college, my junior year, I began to see something absolutely crazy. I would wake in the middle of the evening with everything moving, my heart racing, my face a bright white, stumbling to the bathroom to vomit. I, and everyone else thought I had the flu, but after a couple days of this I knew I did not have the flu. I stayed up for 5 whole day and nights. After visiting the ER with a whole page of symptoms, they sent me home telling me a was a very healthy young woman and to not take pills that were not prescribed to me(I had taken a lot of adderoll a week prior for midterms.) Went back to my sorority house bedroom and felt a slight calmness and tried to sleep. Within an hour I was up again blurred vision, face white as a ghost, and vomiting. My mother came and got me. We went straight to the hospital in Pittsburgh and I received a diagnosis. Panic Disorder. I was placed on an anti-depressant and an anti-anxiety pill called Klonopin. College finished and I was still taking my drugs and feeling ok. But I had no idea what was to come.

At the age of 24, I returned home after leaving and living in NYC to pursue my dream of dancing and acting. I looked like a walking ghost. No soul, no anything. Stopped taking my anti-depressant and layed in bed for 3 entire months. Living off of Klonopin and water. I didn't even have the energy to do anything to myself, I only had the passive wish to God to please take me. My parents truly were lost and as much as the tried to help, nothing worked. Finally I was forced to go see a Psychiatrist and was placed back on an anti-depressant called Wellbutrin. The wonder drug actually worked, after many failed attempts of other anti-depressants. I was feeling like getting out of bed finally. I got a new job, went out with my friends, and tried to fix things with my ex boyfriend who I commend highly for having to witness all of this. His mother was horribly depressed so after he saw her behavior flaws in me, he really couldn't help me anymore. It hurt him too much. Same thing with my own father. My grandmother being a manic-depressive, he had to witness and live with something that he didn't understand at all. And he didn't want to see me like this so he tried to ignore what a position I was in. My mother, of course, was wonderful.

I moved out again and started my own life. I still constantly lived with infinite sadness but I just went through the motions and tried to be the best girl in her mid 20's I could be. At this time I had been through 3 horrible bouts of depression and still suffered daily from anxiety and panic. Also having a extreme addiction to anti anxiety pills, both Klonopin, and Xanax. I had a ton of self made coping mechanisms. 1st being food. I didn't feel like I deserved food but don't get me wrong I ate a TON when I could, but for me to gain weight, well that just couldn't happen. My bad days outweighing my good by over half left me under or around 90 pounds for years. Presciption drug abuse. And my infamous....alcohol abuse. I often drank until I forgot everything and anything. I did not want to feel like I do so I drank very much to get away from my life. Around 26 things started to go downhill at a high speed. The worst thing about depression is that you really never see it coming, in my case that I is. I suffer from chronic depression. A disease I wouldn't even wish upon my worst enemy. I did outpatient after outpatient program. I was placed back on Prozac but still lived with such anxiety that food, alcohol, and drug abuse were very apparent.

January 16th, 2009 my whole world changed. I had mentioned suicide to my therapist that morning, went to work, came home(I had just moved back into my parents and had been there for about a month while Talia and I looked for a new apt), and was told to call my therapist. She instructed me that she had called WPIC and reserved a room for me on the COPE unit where I was told I would be in a cozy setting with lots of other girls who looked very "tiny" like I did. I cried, said no, fuck you, fuck everybody, but she didn't really care and said "that's fine Sarah but if you don't go your parents and myself have the rights to commit you after your behavior at your last therapy session". So off to COPE I went.

My life locked up for 8 weeks in COPE coming up.....

-This story is far from finished and I am hoping I can at least reach out to 1 person out there that is suffering. If you are in crisis right now please call the re:solve hotline at 1-888-796-8226. If you want to call or talk to me send me a message and I will call you.

Why I moved sites

Hi Guys...

Please do NOT use that other site anymore. I had teamed up with another known DC site and they gave me the wordpress for free. However, it was so complicated and I dont have time for messing around. Blogger is quick and easy for me to use.... and believe it or not...easier for you aswell.

The person who gave me the wordpress site basically pissed me off...whilst I was in Hospital they changed things on my site without permission and yesterday they even edited one of my posts.

Do NOT use the email address on that site. Only use truthofdestinyschild@googlemail.com.
I think someone is trying to sabotage us and I wont have it.

Peace XXxXX

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There are two positions going for two writers. I need someone to follow twitter, someone to look for Youtube vids and write any stories you want on any of the ladies. They MUST be written in the same style as myself and you cannot write the same things. They MUST be different to keep my gorgeous readers excited.

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Normal People are Stepping out with "The Glove" WTF

Jewelry designer Lorraine Schwartz created Beyoncé's famous metal glove. "She wanted something a little bit harder and robotic for the 'I Am ... Sasha Fierce' album," Schwartz said. "She kept thinking about having a superhero-like look and she wasn't sure exactly how, but I presented her with a few of my ideas and drawings of the glove." Beyoncé, you may recall, hired Thierry Mugler to design her costumes after seeing his work at the Met's Costume Institute superheroes exhibit. Schwartz continues:

I said we should use titanium because it weighs, like, nothing, compared to gold or silver. We actually did a mold of her hand in wax and it was a pretty incredible experience. At first, people didn't understand it and now I've gone to restaurants and I see people wearing knockoff versions.

Kelly in new 50 cent video: Wendy talks about it!

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Beyonce postpones concert in Malayasia

Kuala Lumpur, (ANI): Beyonce Knowles' concert in Malaysia was postponed by the singer herself, revealed Information, Communications and Culture Minister Datuk Seri Dr Rais Yatim.

Buzz up!Datuk said that there was no interference by his ministry on the matter and that Beyonce, 28, who was scheduled to hold the concert on October 18, had decided to postpone the concert on her own, reports New Straits Times Online.

According to him, there are many possibilities as to why she decided not to perform on the given date, and cited that one of the reasons could be because of pressure from the organisers. He also said her refusal to comply with the dress code or simply because the concert would not be profitable could lead to her postponement.

But he denied rumours that she had been pressured by threats from certain groups after she announced that Malaysia would be one of the venues for her "I AM...World Tour".

Pas Youth was one of the groups, which had declared to take 'further action' over the government's refusal to ban the concert at the National Stadium Bukit Jalil.

Baby is a Bad Boy

I don't know if I disclosed this yet but I get major obsessions whether its researching something I'm interested in all the way to playing the same song on repeat 20 times over. I actually do make CD's that only have one song on them so I don't have to keep hitting back. And yes, I constantly get lectured about this from my friends haha! So what I am trying to get to is what my obsession has been for the past couple of weeks.

Minus listening to 3, working my ass of and doing any job in my area so I can actually stay in my area, and red converse sneakers; I've been an addict to GG also known as Gossip Girl. I totally rewatched all of season one and I was dying for season two so after a very convincing speech from my best friend, I just had to go out tonight and get season 2 on DVD. But this blog is not about GG. It's about the yummy, bad as you can get boy, Chuck Bass. Girls and boys either love or want to be Chuck. He has that much allure. When I discovered him a couple years ago I was automatically turned on. He Spoke my language. Now I preferably prefer Chuck pre Blair days. I love how he always sleeping with a different girl everynight and day, drinking martini's openly at a bar at 18, and spreading scandalous rumors. Ohh and when he was in the mist of molesting Jenny, after he got hit by Lonely Boy, he stated "Hey It's a Party. Stuff Happens". I mean of course everyone should get almost raped at a party according to Bass. Chuck Bass is a true narcissist. But unfortunately he is not real. He is a character that a genius writer came up with. So while I'm still on my mission to find a real Chuck Bass around here, I guess I'll just have to envision my dream through the television.

Now don't get me wrong......I don't want a complete narcissist, and I don't want someone whos cheating on me, but I do want someone that will keep me always guessing with excitement. And maybe expensive gift too!

"Because I'm Chuck Bass"

Peace and Love

S

Got My Ass Squeezed By Sexy Cupid

We all know bars aren't the best places to meet people, but we never really obey that rule. Yes, we all go out to have some champagne here and there so whats the harm in meeting someone else who is just enjoying their cocktail as well? A lot. Everyone is WACK when they are at a bar. It's like the airs different in them and it gives good vibes of one nighters and public make out. Sick! But yes, I've been there and so have you boys and girls. It's only natural. But I actually have not been going out but rather enjoying nights in with loved ones, my journal, or my ear connected on the phone to my sisters that live in different states. Now by doing this, and especially for not having hangovers from drinking, I have my days to do some research on finding the hottest girls and hottest boys who actually share the same interests as you. This entry is going to be an ode to Pittsburgh......but you can truly adopt this to any city.

Whether you are a sporty or artsy person there are places in the city to fit your needs.

Walnut Street in Shadyside. Kinda like a little wannabe M Street in Georgetown minus the fab Intermix and Barneys. Lots of hot boys and girls and tons of coffee shops. Bring that laptop and act like it cannot connect to the WiFi so then you can ask a hot boy or girl that you see to help you out. This leads to conversation which will always lead to dates. Don't be afraid of doing the asking out. Do you really want to live your life thinking "what if?" Museums. I woke up this morning and I couldn't wait to get to the Warhol Museum for the new exhibit! I know some of you don't think this way. I've been gay like this since I was 3 but it's never to late to start showing an interest in Visual Arts. Especially Andy's! The Museum idea also works FABULOUSLY in DC and NYC as well of course! Just drop your program, do the "bend and snap" and you're on your way!!! Carson Street. I'm a sucker for the southside and I love that it's absolutely nuts. Once again.....coffee shops(I have loved the Beehive since I was 14), tons of music venues that gigs usually run at 7pm....a good time because hopefully nobody will be seeing double at 7. Now theres nothing better to me than a guy that either plays or enjoys good music. Soo hot! A million little resterants including my favorite....Mallorca. And the Art Store that's around 24th street I think. I spend hours in this store wishing I could draw, staring at the beautiful white canvases, the lovely oil paints, and always letting myself get something even though I can only draw stick figures. Hey, a girl can dream. I ALWAYS see hotties here. And who doesn't want a boy that can bust out some Leonardo moves and draw you with nothing but a diamond necklace on??? Too busy to go hang out at these places?? No prob. It's called match.com. Now this didn't work for me but I do have a close gf who LOVES it and actually does find boys she likes on it. The best part about Match.com is that is you really want someone that plays tennis, listens to your favorite bands, and has dark hair and dark eyes; you can totally find them. I only found one person that, for me, was datable and we lasted a little over a month. I dumped him because he literally BOREDDDD me to death. And I'm a talker, crazy, fun person and he just wasn't meshing well with my flow so he had to go!

Here's my new favorite spot for meeting hot girls and boys, Wardrobe Fittings, Casting Calls, or on the Set. Yesterday at my Wardrobe fitting(that lasted almost 3 hours!!!!) I met the cutest little model boy. We talked forever and here's the downer, he lives almost 2 hours away from Pittsburgh so I don't do good at LDR's so I had to call it quits but I cannot wait to shoot with this hottie next week. Just love him. Then on my way out I saw two other really hot boys waiting for their fittings. And don't worry guys.....the girls were gorgeous as well!!! So if you have the experience and the looks go read for your local agency and hopefully you will get represented and booked for a few gigs.

And the last thing......you have to have the confidence of no other. I can't stand wimpy guys and girls who complain about "I was too embarrassed to talk to them", "Theres no way a hot boy/girl like them would like me", Or the classic "It's the boys job to ask me out". Well you know what.....it's 2009, we have to make our own paths. If you want something just go after it and get it!

Ohh yes, and lots of girls say sports bars but it's to my belief that this is the worst place. Boys are into sports. Let them have their guy time. They don't come bother us when were getting mani's and pedi's so why bother them. I mean we all saw what happened to Samantha on SATC with her basketball loving boy toy? Complete disaster!

Peace and Love

S

Velvet Ropes and Guitars

Sorry for being a disappearing act since my last post on Tuesday but I'm back in my hometown and there were just so many exciting projects to jump into, I have exhausted myself. Now once again I will tell you.....I am quite the trendsetter so if I were you I would follow accordingly. Thank you. Here are my top October Essentials.\

10. Scarves-Now I love grabbing a scarf and adding to whatever I have on. You can do this for warmth and for fashion. I mean who can forget what a fashion opt was caused by the awesome McQueen skull scarf! I love Chun Luu's creations and I'm still a sucker for the Love Quote scarves that every celeb had a couple years ago. I have one in hot pink and one in white. Love them! Ohh and be original and stay away from the classic Burberry check. Burberry has lovely scarves w/out there damn print all over it. It's annoying to see those. I have one and believe me it only comes out when warmth is absolutly needed.

9. Basketball Diaries DVD. A classic of Leonardo.

8. ESPN Score Center app for your iPhone. I love this app and although I only use it for men's tennis it will come to great use for all of you guys and girls who are in the mist of your football obsession and need up to the minute scores.

7. Cashmere Eye Mask. A girls gotta sleep! BTW, the one shown above is actually the eyemask Holly Golightly(Audry Hepburn) wore throughout the classic Breakfast at Tiffanys.

6. Tom Ford Sunglasses. This is still, from what I know, the only thing that Tom Ford has for women. These sunglasses may be a bit higher in price point but are totally worth the splurge.

5. Unsigned Bands. Support you local music scene and hit up some Pittsburgh based, or whenever you may be, gigs.

4. Pearls, Pearls, and more Pearls. Just dip yourself in them before heading out. They are everywhere and very layered in multiple strands! Gunmetal Pearls are hot as well.

3. A ticket to the Monster Ball starring Lady Gaga. Major must see!!!

2. Chanel polish in Diabolic. A fabulous updated version the very famous Vamp.

1. Best Friends......obviously!


Peace and Love,

S

Boys Like You Love Me Forever

This past week I took a lovely vaca down south to Charlotte, NC. And the boys were everywhere!!! Now I have TONS of experience with crazy bf's and dates but this guy took the cake. He proved to me that he was the craziest of crazy, leading him into what I and Vince Vaughn call a stage 5 clinger! We had met on Wednesday and he was cool, played guitar and sang in a band, had dark eyes.....pretty much all the things I like, so when he called the next day and invited me to dinner then to see him play I accepted. Boy I sure didn't know what I was getting into!!!

My ex boyfriend from the band Filter was kinda the same way. Told me he loved me after 2 weeks, called and text "I miss you" a few times everyday while on tour, and clinged to my every word and displayed major PDA. Maybe this is a musician thing.....I don't know. Now the stage 5 clinger, whom we'll call "J", makes my Filter boyfriend seem like a normal boy. Now dinner with J went smooth. We had a lot in common and mainly talked about the arts, performing and visual. It was great to find someone who shared the same thoughts on many subjects. Afterwards we went to the venue and I watched him play. Everything was still going smooth. After the set was over is when shit started to go down. Guys, DO NOT EVER attempt any of these moves on a 1st date!!!

1. Shoving your tongue down my throat in front of a dozen people watching us.
2. Have to hold my hand at all times.
3. Telling me that I am making him jealous when dancing with one of his friends.
4. Constantly confessing to me that I am the most beautiful girl in the world.
5. Introduce your dog to me as the dogs mother!!!
6. Call me your girlfriend.
7. Telling all your friends that you have "found the one."
8. Asking me to move in after only knowing me for 36 hours!!!
9. Telling me and others that we are going to get married.
10. Staring at me intensely and drooling at the mouth.
11. Texting me "I miss you baby" with a frowning face only 45 minutes since I've seen you. And then calling on repeat since I did not respond.
12. Call from different numbers so I'll pick up not thinking it's him. (Such a girl move!)

And the worst of the worst I have ever experienced; Planning out the holidays so we can both spend time with both families!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I am throwing up in my mouth a little just recalled this hot mess disaster. Now boys.....we like you because you are supposed to be masculine, not a wimpy desperate chick! And girls watch out. If it can happen to me this means it can happen to you too. I didn't know these clingers existed but they are out there and they are scary! Watch out because they do not give the crazy vibe until an hour in. If this happens to me again, or any of you girls, leave where ever you are asap. This is a serious situation that will leave you scarred.

For the rest of my vaca I hung out with the HOTTEST 20 year that looked like he had just stepped of the set of Gossip Girl. And it was soo refreshing to not hear from him every minute of everyday! He kept it fun and sexy, not clingy. Now that's the way to go!

Peace and Love

S

Talk That Sexy Talk To Me

This afternoon I was reminded of one of my favorite pastimes. So were at lunch today and one of my girlfriends gets a so so raunchy text message from a boy that she is talking to at the moment. Thank God we were there to help her through this difficult text situation and made her come out looking like a pro. She was a text sex virgin. It's called sexting and it can come in many forms. Very intimate texts, foreplay style texts, and full on text sex. I personally prefer the good old fashioned phone sex, but with technology today, it's all about the sexting. Thankfully my girlfriend went through her 1st round of "intimate texts", with the great help we had provided her, but sometimes it doesn't end up this way.

I am a very sexually open girl so text sex to me is child splay but don't worry I still do participate. Usually sexting happens when: your boyfriend or girlfriend is away, long distance relationships(don't get involved in LDR's btw. Not worth it!), and what used to be drunk dialing has now turned into drunk texting. The best part about sexting is that you get to send naughty naughty photos with your provocative texts. You get to get all dressed up in your sexy naughty girl gear or for you full on freaks you can dress it down to the nude. I DO NOT do the nude shots. Ok Ok you caught me....I did send a hot photo this year to an ex of my boobs after they grew 2 sizes! I just had to. These, nude shots, can end up in any ones hands and well I mean we all saw what happened to Miley Cirus. And if it's not posted on TMZ, for us normal people it may end up on facebook or even worse.....in all of our boyfriends or the boy that your seeing, friends inboxes!!! So, as I always state in every blog, lingerie is the way to go. Another rule, if this happens in the evening just have full on text sex. Don't waste your lovely lingerie and drunkenness on something unless it's going to get really hot and bothered. The intimate and foreplay texts are meant for usually daytime hours. Don't fret though, there is no bad time to get down.

I will only display the one poor act that text sexting can take. So you did all your boy and do your "her baby. I miss you so much. What would you do to me if you were here. I'm going to do this to you. Now I'm on top" blah blah blah freaky talk. Send a few pics of each other back and forth and before you know it your boy toy gets off and your left with no more incoming text and listening to "Touch Of My Hand." Now this is why I like phone sex so much better. Just put that bluetooth on and let your imagination go wild with both hands free. Very fun for both participants.

Best wishes in your experiences and hopefully you have a gf or bf that loves to do this. Life can be a bore, so don't date one. Even if you had just seen them sometimes all you want is more, more, more! If you find it hard to come up with your next line just say I want to have "hot dirty unicorn sex"eg:dlisted.com's explaination of Robert Patterson, and that should totally work

"I make no appologies. I'm into phonography. I like my bluetooth, buttons comin' loose. I need my hands free"-B.Spears

Peace and Love

S

Come Feel This Magic I've Been Feeling Since I Met You

Hopefully this will get my current obsession out of the way but for the past week all I can do is listen, read, and find out everything I can about Taylor Swift! Now I don't know if I posted my obsession blog on this or if it's in my notes but I go through obsession phases quite often with musicians, other artists, and topics that capture my attention. This is why I spend a lot of time at the library!!! Well this week it was Taylor and let me tell you that I do believe everyone needs to take the time and listen to Fearless because Taylor is such a beautiful and truthful songwriter that you can actually picture yourself in every situation. This Album is based around boys, aka my favorite topic. I have no idea when this came out but I really wanted to go to a concert last week so I chose Taylor's and stole my mothers copy of the CD. At 1st I just listened to "You Belong With Me" over and over but soon I drifted onto other songs. I can't even pick a favorite because I seriously, and probably most of you as well, have been in these situations. Now it get off the topic of her album(which you must purchase!), I will tell you a few secrets I found out about Taylor.

1. Her idol is Britney Spears. Now if that doesn't say much I don't know what does. She gets an A+ in my book for that because Britney is also my idol!

2. Even though she's been dumped and broken hearted many times she still holds no angst against guys and believes in love. In my last post you will notice I wrote an almost similar statement about how in love I am with love, soulmates, and fairytales. And I've been burnt a lot.

3. My friend Shelly got to go onto her tour bus and meet her! She said she was sooo nice and sooo beautiful in person! And Shelly meeting her idol just made my heart smile for her these past few days. I'm just soo happy.

4. She loves what she does and she worked her ass off to get where she is. Writing all her own songs, and having her guitar by her side at all times. Believe it or not she has been singing, writing , and playing the guitar since age 8.

5. She admits to doing the best stalker move ever. We all do it from crushes to ex's........the classic drive by!!! My best friend and I did these at least once a day. We would borrow our friends cars and think we in disguise hahaha!

6. And best of all......She LOVES being a role model to her fans! You don't find that anymore so often. She stated that it is one of the most important things in her career. She's just a sweet little angel so who wouldn't love to follow in her footsteps?

To finalize this post here is a quote from Taylor about being Fearless and it's beautiful: Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before you've lost. It's Fearless to have faith someday that things will change.

Please listen to White Horse and Hey Stephen if you choose to download them. These are my current two favs! And please check out the great photos that I added to my album of her tour bus, T with her fans, and her wonderful concert!

Peace and Love

S