Love makes the world go round. Love makes people crazy. Love makes you do things you never thought you would. Love brightens up your days. Love leaves you crying rereading love letters all night and cursing their name. Love makes you feel like you're on top of the world but when that world crumbles it can takes months to be able to see the light again. Love is love. There's nothing like it. And we cannot live without it.
I am about as much of a hopeless romantic as you can get. I am truly in love with love. Now I am NOT a girl who has to have a bf every single minute, even though some may disagree. But nothing beats waking up with the giggles and smiling so excited to see the person. Running into their embrace and feeling a million butterflies flutter around your stomach. Looking at them in disbelief that just this one person can make you soo happy. Hey it's magical and I do believe in fairytales, happily ever afters, and soulmates. I believe you can have several soulmates out there. But you'll find them. I believe you have to go after what you want and fight for it. Don't give up on love just because you think love gave up on you.
Did you ever have that crush, well that really never gave you the time of day, but you held your head high and had hope? You'd sing love songs all day, dubbing his name into the songs, and talk with your friends about how great everything is going to be? Ohhh these are my favorite because they soo innocent and glorious. I haven't had one of these since Adam. And after a year of singing about this boy and finally getting my kiss with him, I was all Adam'd out. I could finally set down my journal, stop crying, and move on. But for that, I just needed that kiss.
I never thought my first love, Pete, would ever leave me so when he did I truly didn't know what to do with myself and I finally did some of the insane activities that I've seen other girls so and roll my eyes. I was horrible to Pete but I was also madly in love with him and he was madly in love with me. But there was something off in this romance. I think he might have loved me a tad more and I did NOT treat him the way I should have. He treated me like a true princess. So after it was REALLY over, I went to his house when no one was home, sat in his room and cried, collected my things, and wrote a four page love letter on yellow paper with pencil. Collected myself and calmly placed the letter along with the "love mix" I had made him of like "our songs" and drove away. I was left scared and seriously wasn't finally healed until a couple years later. But now I look back and he's soo wonderful and I learned the best lesson that you can learn. Don't treat others the way you wouldn't want to be treated.
And then there are the ones that you can't stop loving even though you would give anything to quit. I fell in love with him the 1st date we went on in 2003. He went to high school with all of my girlfriends so he was always around and often came to my college to visit. He was soo sweet and so adorable. I've never had so much in common with someone. We even shared the same dream hahaha! Ohh my gosh I am laughing so hard just thinking of all the crazy things me and this boy do. We're crazy! And I can't even stand straight when he is around. Yes, even after seven years he still makes my knees this weak. We've been through very good and very bad times. We're either perfectly in love or were not speaking. We're never fully together, we are both serial daters. But at the end of the day he's all I want. Right now, I'm feeling invisible and the fights have been horrendous and my heart a bit torn. But I know he loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world! I know he belongs with me. And these lyrics are soo our relationship "Ohh I remember you driving to my house, in the middle of the night. I'm the one who makes you laugh, when you know your about to cry. I know your favorite songs, and you tell me about your dreams. I think I know where you belong......Think I know it's with meeeee!!!" *just had to throw in a little T. Swift in there.
Also please take my advise on this one and DO NOT have secret relationships. We all do it and have you ever seen it end well......absolutely not! Yeah he was great, soo fun, and maybe I even fell in love with him. But after so long, the secret has to come out and fights start and it's the most dramatic of dramatic endings because you never thought something so innocent and fun would turn into this horrible nightmare and your heart would be on the line.
I talked about like 2 relationships but as my mother would say "Sarah, for me to keep up with all of your boyfriends. I would need a big notebook and a pen."
No matter what. Keep your head up.......fall madly in love again even though you've been hurt before. Let yourself fall for someone, even though they are in love with somebody else. Love someone despite what people may think. No matter what loves throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories, and happily ever afters. I do and I wouldn't change it for anything <3
"How do you think I feel. I haven't slept, I feel sick like theres something in my stomach. Fluttering." -Chuck Bass on love
Peace and Love
S
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