Who Has to Know?

This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront....this is not a love story. Nor is this a writeup about my favorite movie 500 Days of Summer. It is simply a letter telling the story of two people and the way most relationships end. In a very fucked up matter. On that note....let's begin.

One shiny starry evening, a girl, and a boy, we're out walking the streets of downtown Cincinnati. The two did not know of each other but kept passing glances as both of their groups of friends were walking near one another. Finally the girl, Lydia, spoke up to the boy she had been eying. His name was Adam and after that was all a blur. From the start, everything was going just grand. They spent a lot of time together and developed a fantastic friendship and bond as well as an incredible sex life. There were of course some issues though. #1 Although he may be spending the night about four nights a week, and this is really nuts so get prepared, THEY ONLY SPOKE THROUGH TEXT MESSAGING! Ewwww and Ahhhh! Red Alert! Of course Lydia did notice this and realized after a couple months that it was not normal but she just put it aside because she was soo smitten. Issue #2 For some reason Adam had this thing that he rarely ever came over before 9 or 10pm. In the beginning this was cool because really who cares as long as you get to see each other but getting a little further into it, Lydia began to wonder. And Issue #3 He NEVER took her out in public. Ohh yeah. HUGE sign there. Adam kept Lydia as what me along with the All American Rejects, as his "Dirty Little Secret".

These are just the 1st 3 issues. Now when 18-ohh you know your early 20's, usually you're not really looking for much but a rad time in bed and a little laughter but as we grow older(unfortunately) we begin to have these things called feelings and well we all know how they story goes.........as much as we'd love to say it ain't true, there are only a certain amount of times one can sleep with another before one gets a tad in lust. And yes boys this includes you. I've seen some great "in love" psychos I've slept with one too many times go nuts, when they saw me chilling with another boy, when I told them I had no intentions on actually dating them and was just having fun. So don't ever blame it all on the crazy chicks. When it comes to love a switch goes off, pretty much immediately, that makes both parties a little more wacko than usual. Lust leads to love and love leads to complete MADNESS. Especially with a guy with tricks up his sleeve like good old Adam. For tonight I'll leave you with these 3, get the heck out of it while you can, issues to think about. But don't worry. Lydia is sucked in and Adam is right there by her side. Well from 10pm-6am, behind closed doors, kinda thing. Part II coming tomorrow. Will Lydia come to her senses or will Adam start bringing Lydia around his friends? Ohh the anxiety. Talk with you soon loves.

**This is actually NOT about one of my old crazy bf's. As you know his name would have already be out there and the places we were, who we were with, and all that other fun stuff would have been written right out. Just like Taylor Swift puts it all out there in her nutty love songs.

Peace&Should I Even Say LOVEEEEE haha

S

Must Haves-Men's Puma Edition

I really enjoy the House of Puma....hahahaha okay I guess it's not a fashion house my any means so let's just say I really enjoy Puma. They have some of the most exceptional-runaround, running errands, chilling, throw on-clothes, accessories, and of course, sneakers! I mean, HELLO, Puma's past guest designer was Alexander McQueen RIP babe. I LOVE stylish men but you know those are really rare to find. In my perfect world all men would dress like Kurt Hummel(Chris Colfer) from Glee. He is always, no matter what, dressed head to toe in Tom Ford, Burberry Prorsum, Vince, Marc Jacobs, and etc. But another thing with that....he's gay and gay men are stinking FABULOUS when it comes to dressing themselves. So straight guys really can compete. Other than the A-list designer attire, I truly love my man in tee's, jeans, sneaks, baseball caps, and hoodies. I love a boy who knows what they are doing with their rugged clothes. You can also get all of these purchases at Bloomies and just be a really well expensively dressed bummed out grungy man, but until we are at that level, Puma is the PERFECT place to begin.

PUMA Sherpa Hooded Jacket $120

PUMA Cat Remix Shoes $90

PUMA Archive Outdoor Hat $20 (I recently bought almost this exact hat for my friend and he LOVES it and looks adorable. Great choice!)

PUMA Hermit Multicolored Gloves $12

PUMA Shift Cardigan Sweater $90

Rudolf Dassler for PUMA Bertour Shoes $120

PUMA Inshore Sailing Jacket $210

On top of these great picks that will turn on any girl......they are also quite affordable! $12 for thick fingerless warm gloves????? That's practically just giving them away. My favorite piece out of these favorites is the Sherpa Hooded Jacket. Not only is it hot, hot, hot but it is also something you will use year after year. Guys go try this look out and ladies go shop for the men in your life!

Peace&PUMA

S

Never a Clean Break, No One Here To Save Me

Love makes the world go round. Love makes people crazy. Love makes you do things you never thought you would. Love brightens up your days. Love leaves you crying rereading love letters all night and cursing their name. Love makes you feel like you're on top of the world but when that world crumbles it can takes months to be able to see the light again. Love is love. There's nothing like it. And we cannot live without it.

I am about as much of a hopeless romantic as you can get. I am truly in love with love. Now I am NOT a girl who has to have a bf every single minute, even though some may disagree. But nothing beats waking up with the giggles and smiling so excited to see the person. Running into their embrace and feeling a million butterflies flutter around your stomach. Looking at them in disbelief that just this one person can make you soo happy. Hey it's magical and I do believe in fairytales, happily ever afters, and soulmates. I believe you can have several soulmates out there. But you'll find them. I believe you have to go after what you want and fight for it. Don't give up on love just because you think love gave up on you.

Did you ever have that crush, well that really never gave you the time of day, but you held your head high and had hope? You'd sing love songs all day, dubbing his name into the songs, and talk with your friends about how great everything is going to be? Ohhh these are my favorite because they soo innocent and glorious. I haven't had one of these since Adam. And after a year of singing about this boy and finally getting my kiss with him, I was all Adam'd out. I could finally set down my journal, stop crying, and move on. But for that, I just needed that kiss.
I never thought my first love, Pete, would ever leave me so when he did I truly didn't know what to do with myself and I finally did some of the insane activities that I've seen other girls so and roll my eyes. I was horrible to Pete but I was also madly in love with him and he was madly in love with me. But there was something off in this romance. I think he might have loved me a tad more and I did NOT treat him the way I should have. He treated me like a true princess. So after it was REALLY over, I went to his house when no one was home, sat in his room and cried, collected my things, and wrote a four page love letter on yellow paper with pencil. Collected myself and calmly placed the letter along with the "love mix" I had made him of like "our songs" and drove away. I was left scared and seriously wasn't finally healed until a couple years later. But now I look back and he's soo wonderful and I learned the best lesson that you can learn. Don't treat others the way you wouldn't want to be treated.

And then there are the ones that you can't stop loving even though you would give anything to quit. I fell in love with him the 1st date we went on in 2003. He went to high school with all of my girlfriends so he was always around and often came to my college to visit. He was soo sweet and so adorable. I've never had so much in common with someone. We even shared the same dream hahaha! Ohh my gosh I am laughing so hard just thinking of all the crazy things me and this boy do. We're crazy! And I can't even stand straight when he is around. Yes, even after seven years he still makes my knees this weak. We've been through very good and very bad times. We're either perfectly in love or were not speaking. We're never fully together, we are both serial daters. But at the end of the day he's all I want. Right now, I'm feeling invisible and the fights have been horrendous and my heart a bit torn. But I know he loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world! I know he belongs with me. And these lyrics are soo our relationship "Ohh I remember you driving to my house, in the middle of the night. I'm the one who makes you laugh, when you know your about to cry. I know your favorite songs, and you tell me about your dreams. I think I know where you belong......Think I know it's with meeeee!!!" *just had to throw in a little T. Swift in there.

Also please take my advise on this one and DO NOT have secret relationships. We all do it and have you ever seen it end well......absolutely not! Yeah he was great, soo fun, and maybe I even fell in love with him. But after so long, the secret has to come out and fights start and it's the most dramatic of dramatic endings because you never thought something so innocent and fun would turn into this horrible nightmare and your heart would be on the line.

I talked about like 2 relationships but as my mother would say "Sarah, for me to keep up with all of your boyfriends. I would need a big notebook and a pen."

No matter what. Keep your head up.......fall madly in love again even though you've been hurt before. Let yourself fall for someone, even though they are in love with somebody else. Love someone despite what people may think. No matter what loves throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories, and happily ever afters. I do and I wouldn't change it for anything <3

"How do you think I feel. I haven't slept, I feel sick like theres something in my stomach. Fluttering." -Chuck Bass on love

Peace and Love
S