And the World Can Live as One....

Okay I'm trying to keep my mouth shut about this anymore because I think I have told enough people to fuck off in the past hour to last me a while! I am a fan on facebook of Courtney Love Cobain. For those of you that do not know her she the front singer of Hole, a solo artist, and is widowed by the late Kurt Cobain. She is also releasing a new album in January so get it, get it, get it!!! She's a really cool chick I think and I've had HORRIBLE insomnia the past couple weeks so I have been talking a lot with her late night. She interacts with all of her fans......and yes it is still all mispelled and jumps from topic to topic but hey whatever. You ask her a question and she answers. And as I respect her as a musician, I have also began to respect her as a person. P.S. If you don't want to hear positive things about Courtney then don't read this. I don't need anyones opinion. I'll give you where to go so you can do that.

Well just last night I was up till about 5:30am and it blew. But from about 11pm on I would check my fb because I have it on my iphone and blah blah blah. It entertains me. Well yesterday Courtney lost custody of her daughter to Kurts mother and sister and although it was Frances Beans decision, not the courts, Courtney was writing for about 5 hours on how upset she was. Like any normal parent would be if your teenager was raging like most of us all did. Most people on her 'FAN' page, were very supportive but there were like a handful of really bad people, up as late as I was, telling her what a crackheaded bitch she was and "she doesn't deserve a child", "she killed Kurt(like seriously people get over it. He suffered from type II Bipolar and was addicted to heroin. Believe me, he commited suicide), "that's not even Courtneys kid. she adopted her to trap Kurt", and blah blah blah. Anyways all these cruel things were popping up and I'm like dude this is a fan page why the f are you even reading her away messages if you hate her so bad? So now, today, Perez Hilton, posted 2 of Courtneys comments from last night. Not good ones that she wrote, and she is very upset. He picked the nasty ones......or Courtney thinks its Kurts family that sent it in and is trying to ruin her.

This story can go on and on but seriously people be supportive of people that are going through difficult times. This is not half as bad but it reminds me of Perez when he picked on Britney soooo bad when she was in an extreme manic state. But then loved her again when she got treated? wtf dude. You have to love people through the good and the bad. Right now hes obsessed with gaga and you know as soon as something happens to her hes going to write bad things. It's just not right!


"dont worry frances is a wonderful kid shes gotbadd people around her and wants it both ways, her aunt brieanne who isnt kurts sister is a black hole, look ask charlie cross or don cobain whart a disaster the drunk as fuck nasty assed brieanne is,ask kelly osbourne, well im going out with ms palmer and ms kirke and frances have fun on your covers of the tabs, thats what your wonder bread side likes, you couldve asked for emanicaption youc ouldve gone to simons rock, but you have to get involved with that terrifying not to me, to you witch who keeps britney spars in jail? thats insane. you realie this will put you in juvenoile fami;y circus three times in your little life? this is what along with his mother killed your father, i think im selling a house today, not in the mood to supportthese assholes anymore. i have shit to do, i love you and always will unconditionally."

And yes another thing about Courtney......she also thinks this whole 'conservatorship' is fucking ridiculous! Britney is in jail. Can you imagine having to ask your dad for your "allowence" at 28 yrs old with 2 kids? Shes going to go absolutly mad when she gets free from this inprisionment. It's just soo sad. And just because she has a mental disorder. I just don't think it's right. Just wait until she's free. We'll see what happens then. And I don't think it will be good.

Peace & Love

S

Ohh and please become a fan of Courtney Love Cobain if you are a true fan. Thank you.

Don't You Know Who I Am

Remember My Name.......FAME!

As one of the greatest movies displaying the performing arts and if I can think, the only movie made about a Creative and Performing Arts high school, Fame is at the top of it's game. On Friday a new updated version was presented to the world. Bravo and good work! I went and saw Fame (2009) today and found it hard to sit still I wanted to get up and sing and dance so bad. Just like the original we saw talented actors, dancers, musicians, and singers trying to make there mark on the world and be the best that they can be at their craft. The most relatable and riveting thing about Fame, both versions, are the characters drive and passion for what they are doing. You don't find this much and many never experience it.

I have experienced that sort of drive and insane passion for a craft that if I wasn't the best, I would rather die. It's the greatest feeling in the world. Myself, a former attendee of Pittsburgh's Middle School for the Creative and Performing Arts, and CAPA, aka, Pittsburgh's high school for the Creative and Performing Arts, was a dedicated artist till the end. The movie is basically a duplicate of what these schools are really like. It's a liberal, energetic, passionate place. Everyone is practicing all the time, dancing in the lunch line was normal, busting out in song in an academic class was normal as well. That's just how it was, and I wouldn't have changed it no matter what. It was a magical place where kids could all come together, no one was outcast, and be one. For we all had the same dream. Success.

I don't know if any of you have loved something soo much and if you didn't do it it felt like a part of your soul was missing. I have. And I feel very blessed to have felt that way. If I close my eyes and turn on Tchaikovsky, I can still feel it. I was a dancer, and I was going to be the best god damn dancer in the world! I practiced my craft up to 7 hours a day 7 days a week. But so did all of my friends. We were some dedicated people. I remember my 8th grade graduation show and our choreography was to the song Fame. Myself and another young ballerina, came out towards the end and played the ballerina in the movie. Little did I know 7 years later I would be standing on a Broadway stage jumping up and down because I received a callback to play this character on Broadway. A dream come true(that I royally f'd up by skipping my callback because it was at the same time of my 4th American Idol callback. FML.) The worst about this "performing bug" is that you never lose it. I have been trying to get rid of it for 4 years now and I just can't seem to shake it. I guess when you dedicate yourself to an art since the age of 4 and never leave it's side, it's kind of hard to lose. And maybe it's the fact that, dancing, is really all I've ever known.

This is the biggest run on piece I have ever written but maybe it was important for me to get this out there and get back to where my heart is and do what I am supposed to be doing. Performing is my heart and soul and like I said, it's just not shaking off too well. I really hope all of you have found or have had your passion because it truly is the best feeling in the world. So what were all of your dreams? And if you aren't doing them.......what are you waiting for? Life is to short.

Peace and Love

S