I think I'll try...Defying gravity...And you can't pull me down

Hello my darling fans! I am home from NYC and have lots to tell you. Just to begin, 1st off, no I did not make season 7 of SYTYCD. I was cut after the 4th round but it was a delightful experience that I will go into later.

Sunday afternoon I dropped my baggage off and walked straight to Radio City where Lady Gaga was to perform later on that night. Just as I suspected, there were a good handful of scalpers. I had planned this little event in my head since I knew she would be there while I was and being a huge fan and loving the theatrical feel she gives to her performances I just knew I couldn't miss this. So I'm standing there in the doorway of the subway entrance with my guy and I got him down to $100 for a pretty good seat from what I could tell. And then out of no where I grew up a little. I gave him the ticket back and said I'm sorry sir but I just can't. And in a good old NYC way the guy told me to "fuck off you little bitch don't come around here wasting my time bitch" as I walked away. Now see when I auditioned for a little show called American Idol back in it's prime, I was 21. I made it to the top 100 in NYC and the final round I sang for Simon, Paula, and Randy. But you see I had made really good friends with two guys that worked for MTV and it was the week of the VMA's. My final aud. was on Friday but I was invited and given a ticked to go with my two new friends to Justin Timberlake and Christina Aguilera's VMA after party at the Roseland. Now at 21, this was wayyyy more important than my career obviously. So I went, mingled with a ton of awesome musicians and sent myself home at 3am. Slept for a couple hours and went to the Waldof Astoria and was not in prime condition. Did I make it to Hollywood......no. If I would have stayed in and rehearsed......yes I very well may have. Point in case here is that I decided to get a good nights sleep this time around for this open call.

Monday was HORRIBLE! I stood in the freezing cold rain, drenched to the bone for a good 3 hours, got in the theatre around 9:30/10, and didn't go on until 7pm!!!! Talk about tired!!! I think the whole production team had gone to Gaga the night before because Bad Romance was on repeat for us to improv to. I did great through and got sent through to the next round. Tuesday same shit different producers. Danced from 8 to around 4, did all the cheesy interviews they make you do, and got cut on the 4th round. I was told my contemporary wasn't strong enough and to work on it and come back later this year or next. It was a really fun audition and cool cause we got to watch everyone. Amazing male dancers!!!! Amazing! I was not disappointed but for maybe 5 minutes then was over it. Like I had stated before I had left......I don't want to have to do a reality show but I want a job out of it. And I still have tons of faith I'll get a great dancing job that I'll love. So practice, practice, practice! BTW everyone fails and it's those who keep going back and trying again are those who succeed. Never give up people <3.

Tuesday night I went to see Wicked. LOVED it! Definitely in my top 5!!! I can't get it out of my head! What's you're favorite musical? I'm still dying to see Lion King. I'm going to see "In the Heights" next week here in pgh. Soo excited!

After Wicked it was like almost 11 I think and I was in such a good mood so I decided to go get a glass of champagne at my old place of employment, Hotel Gansevoort. So I'm sitting at the bar drinking and I was like getting drunk(prob cause I totally forgot to eat that day and I was running on no sleep.) I looked around and who did I see, only a cast member from my favorite show Glee, Chris Colfer aka Kurt!!! So I said f it and went and said hi and sat down. We had an absolute blast. It was just me, Chris, and his agent. Then we moved from the rooftop to another bar in the hotel. And the rest is blurry hahaha. I was doing Britney Spears dances for them of course.

Then it was time to go home. Eww! I hoped on the subway and went to Chinatown before I left to pick up some fake good. I totally scored big time! And bought a couple gifts for my darling girlfriends and cousins. And well that's that kids. I peaced out and went to the airport. I really miss NYC and living there. It's just soo fun and energetic to walk outside at midnight and the streets are packed and the lights are bright and you feel like you can do anything. I'm sure everyone feels the same when they go there or have lived there. I'm not looking to move back though. I am looking into moving to LA for Pilot season maybe??? We'll see!

Alright there......longgggg blog hahahaha! Always keep dreaming and never give up! You only live once so do what makes you happy! No matter what it may be!

Peace & Love

S

If you have any further questions about auditions, resumes, headshots, and so on just write me and I will help you out as much as I can.

Work it, Bitch!

I'm absolutely thrilled I have a minute to sit down and write. I utterly exhausted from dancing all day but it's good exhaustion. I'm soo happy to be back at doing what I love and what I know. I gave this up for a few years and I was miserable. I didn't give it up because I quit, I gave it up because I was very depressed and couldn't focus on something so important. Well I'm back and better than ever(minus my right développé which isn't quite up to my ear yet so I'm mad but I'll prob sit here all night and make it be!). I'm going to nyc on Sunday for a few days of auditions(aka my vaca from the blog). Super excited! And then I just found a few other things that I want to audition for, if I happen to not get a job next week, in Feb! Dancing is like the best high I can get. We'll actually performing is the best high I think you can ever get. All that energy you have waiting in the wings to go out on stage and then just tearin' it up, its fucking amazing!

So here's what it's all about. What the hell do you want to do? There are soo many amazing things to do with dance besides teaching, which everyone knows I hate but I did do it for 3 years. Just think about NYC, LA, and Vegas alone how many dancers are needed a year. Broadway, off Broadway, Tour back up dancers, Show dancers, Dancers on tv shows, and the list goes on and on. It's crazy!!! And I bet if you looked into it you could find that your passion is out there too but you just have to say "fuck it" and get out there! Life's short. All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them-Disney. I finally feel again as if I were 21 and all I wanted was to drop out of school and go to nyc! There is NO need for me to ever go back to a cube. And if I can do this, you guys can do this too! I promise!!! Last year at this exact time I was probably in DBT class locked up in Cope. Dreams do and can come true. One of mine has already and that was to be happy so I think this next one should be a piece of cake. And no matter what.......NEVER GIVE UP! And don't EVER SETTLE.

Now there is one person who has a dream but I don't really see it happening. Ms. Heidi Montag has recently stated that her dream is to be a pop star. Wow Heidi that's one of my dream to but I know I don't have the vocals. You sing like me......just ok. It's not good enough. And PLEASE never say you want to be like Britney Spears. You will NEVER be like Britney. Britney, for one thing, is all natural. Unlike you who had 15 plastic surgeries and look non human. Secondly Britney Spears is a pop icon and has been since she was 17. And bitch can perform like there is no tomorrow. So just please don't ever say that you could even compete with Brit because you are like cement on the ground compared to her. Ok sorry just had to get that out of my system.

And really though......don't we all grow up and dream of being rock stars. I know I did. I'm not ashamed. It's hands down the best job in the world. Anyone disagree?

So like my other blogs this has turned into a bunch of rambling. I really need to stop following Courtney Love on Twitter. I think that's where I am getting this shit. Anyways go after your dreams no matter what! I got your back!

Peace, Love, & DREAMS

S

All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible.


It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else.

Don't You Know Who I Am

Remember My Name.......FAME!

As one of the greatest movies displaying the performing arts and if I can think, the only movie made about a Creative and Performing Arts high school, Fame is at the top of it's game. On Friday a new updated version was presented to the world. Bravo and good work! I went and saw Fame (2009) today and found it hard to sit still I wanted to get up and sing and dance so bad. Just like the original we saw talented actors, dancers, musicians, and singers trying to make there mark on the world and be the best that they can be at their craft. The most relatable and riveting thing about Fame, both versions, are the characters drive and passion for what they are doing. You don't find this much and many never experience it.

I have experienced that sort of drive and insane passion for a craft that if I wasn't the best, I would rather die. It's the greatest feeling in the world. Myself, a former attendee of Pittsburgh's Middle School for the Creative and Performing Arts, and CAPA, aka, Pittsburgh's high school for the Creative and Performing Arts, was a dedicated artist till the end. The movie is basically a duplicate of what these schools are really like. It's a liberal, energetic, passionate place. Everyone is practicing all the time, dancing in the lunch line was normal, busting out in song in an academic class was normal as well. That's just how it was, and I wouldn't have changed it no matter what. It was a magical place where kids could all come together, no one was outcast, and be one. For we all had the same dream. Success.

I don't know if any of you have loved something soo much and if you didn't do it it felt like a part of your soul was missing. I have. And I feel very blessed to have felt that way. If I close my eyes and turn on Tchaikovsky, I can still feel it. I was a dancer, and I was going to be the best god damn dancer in the world! I practiced my craft up to 7 hours a day 7 days a week. But so did all of my friends. We were some dedicated people. I remember my 8th grade graduation show and our choreography was to the song Fame. Myself and another young ballerina, came out towards the end and played the ballerina in the movie. Little did I know 7 years later I would be standing on a Broadway stage jumping up and down because I received a callback to play this character on Broadway. A dream come true(that I royally f'd up by skipping my callback because it was at the same time of my 4th American Idol callback. FML.) The worst about this "performing bug" is that you never lose it. I have been trying to get rid of it for 4 years now and I just can't seem to shake it. I guess when you dedicate yourself to an art since the age of 4 and never leave it's side, it's kind of hard to lose. And maybe it's the fact that, dancing, is really all I've ever known.

This is the biggest run on piece I have ever written but maybe it was important for me to get this out there and get back to where my heart is and do what I am supposed to be doing. Performing is my heart and soul and like I said, it's just not shaking off too well. I really hope all of you have found or have had your passion because it truly is the best feeling in the world. So what were all of your dreams? And if you aren't doing them.......what are you waiting for? Life is to short.

Peace and Love

S

I'm Like The Ringleader

Okay I have a major problem with a supposed fall staple piece. It's a jacket, kinda military looking, kind of MJ looking, kind of Circus Tour looking, and basically just kind of idiotic looking. I'm all for performance. I grew up on the stage. Do stage costumes belong on the streets??? Most likely no......unless your doing RENT and you are just dressed like a NYC lower eastsider stripper/aids protester. That ones cool. Other than that......costumes are costumes. Keep them on the set!

I'm sure you all know which piece I am referring to. It was named a top 10 must have for fall by the Daily 10 on E! and was recently seen on Beyonce(which I have to say if you are going to do this, PLEASEEEE invest and use the Alice and Olivia version). A&O is the only decent one I have seen so far. Don't go to Target or Contempo Casuals or Forever 21 and grab one of these. You'll look like a jackass.

So here is my final thought on the Embellished Military Jacket. Don't do it. Agree or disagree, I don't care but what I do know if that this jacket will be OUT just as fast as in came in. Leave it for the stage and go see the Circus starring Britney Spears(she wears a fab red one), or go on and watch/look through great old school MJ photos and video. He is the owner of this look and that's where we should keep it!

Peace and Love

S