Beautiful

I cannot stop watching the two previous video post I placed in the blog below. I kind of started ignoring Lady Gaga as a person and what she had to say because at one point I do believe she was just talking nonsense and being too provocative for her young fans but that's not it at all. She's being true to us. Not leaving out a word of what she feels and goes through, excitement and scares. I think she is absolutely insane and in my eyes being absolutely insane is being absolutely genius. I've never met a person that was insane that wasn't genius because something in there life fell and they had to crawl back up and get it. The strongest people. She faked it till she made it and now that she did make it she still can't believe it. Even when you watch Laurieann Gibson on her Boomkack dance show on E! you will see how when she speaks about Lady Gaga(who she is personal choreographer to lady gaga and the Haus of Gaga), her eyes widen and she knows shes talking about someone who gave everything they had to get where they are.





I can't stop watching these "behind the scenes HBO specials" for the Monster Ball and not on a single one, did I not cry. She is soo true and real to herself and to her fans it's just unbelievably touching. She gives me soo much hope, power, enrichment, and spirituality. I do believe the creative souls are closest to God. There is something about the stage that if you don't have God watching it's really not possible. This is about that thing. that thing that you feel in your soul when the lights dim, the the crowd roars, and you're not you anymore. You become this things that disappears and comes back at the end to take your bow. You're superhuman. I know that is the feeling shes talking about because nothing brings you such emotions. Please watch all of these little segments. there are more on youtube if you look under Monster Ball HBO. I don't know if it is because I know how your soul takes over or I can just feel the truth and the ambition in her words, but I believe this is something everyone should get a chance to feel. GO AFTER YOUR DREAMS. SUCK IT UP AND DO IT. NO FEAR.



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P&L

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For Every Kid Who Still Feels Like I Feel

BELIEVE




LOVE

Celebration of Life

Hey loves.......okay so I am finally back in Pittsburgh, PA and plan on sleeping for quite a long time after attending the fabulosity that was my lil Cousins wedding. A touch of too many days with the loud fam and a whole large amount of just wayyyyyyy to much time with mom and dad. Ohh yes, I was 13 all over again. Don't you just love getting treated like you are 13? It's a blast. But anyways yay to lauren and Kris!!!! Soo much fun and such a beautiful wedding at Fort Lee Army/Navy/all of the "vys" I think, base. If Ryan Coss is reading this......I'm sorry kiddo and I know I probably wrote that up all wrong so feel free to fix it.

We lost a really great guy this weekend, BJ(William) Haas and I would like to really send out my deepest condolences to his family, friends, and his fraternity brothers. I have the most wonderful memories, from over the past 9-10 years with BJ. Always laughing and just such a fun guy. It's really really just plain out sad when someone dies that you went to school with and is that your exact age. You just never see it coming. I think his frat brothers are really keeping him alive in spirit with their beautiful words and memories.



I will not be writing this evening because I don't think I can think that much right now to put anything decent together but this week we will be discussing the following and more: Grammy nominations, saying goodbye to my Vintage 2007 4gb iPhone, learning how to be quiet when you have no idea what someone else's life is like and to NOT bring up very serious topics if you have completely ignorance towards them, hot watches for both men and women this winter(yes, G-Shock is still #1 in my eyes), and lots of other fun(and serious) stuff!


Hope you all had a great weekend and let's all wish my friend Christopher and his band The Mo Odds the best of luck at the Viper Room tonight! Ohh and I have a new date and a new ticket for LA for my move.......It's taking place on Jan. 13th at 12:30. Yes! And I got my ticket for free because of a voucher from the last time I was in LA that I forgot I had!!!! Yes!



Have a great night and don't forget to watch my girlfriend Courtney on Saved by the Baby on VH1 tonight!!! Usual time of 10:30.


Peace&Love
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Fly Away From Here

*Something personal I feel the need to address

I've been writing a lot, which I love don't get me wrong, but I'm using it as a distraction mechanism so I can try to get my mind off of my father for a few hours a day. 17 days ago my dad was in a horrible motorcycle accident. He is alive and he will(with all hope and faith in God) fully recover. He was hit and ran over by an SUV who wasn't paying attention. He woke up laying underneath this car. If he had not had his helmet on he wouldn't have lasted more then a couple hours or just died instantly. I, ever since he got a motorcycle, which I believe was around 13-14 years ago, have been against it. I cried and cried but my dad loved it and promised me he would always be safe. And well here we are.

He is very traumatized by from the experience and was left in very poor condition. The biggest issue right lung which was punctured by one of his 8 broken ribs causing it to collapse. He finally got his chest tube out last week that was draining all of the blood in and around the lung but within a couple days he was back in surgery. He grew a high fever and they thought just the wound that the tube was in was infected but they had found much more than that. His entire right lung was covered on the outside with blood blots and the lung itself has so much fluid in it they had to put not one, but 3 chest tubes back in. Now I can't even huge my dad goodnight when I leave. His left leg was broken, chipped, and shattered and is not put together by pins and screws. If he were to put weight on it in the next 3 months, it will shatter again. The left leg is in a cast so it will not clot. He is unable to move that leg as well.

Now coming from a brighter perspective I will just say that my Dad must have had his best of best guardian angel team beside him that day. I haven't really heard of many accidents that involve motorcycles leaving the cyclist still living. What happened to my dad, even though it is horribly painful and is leaving him out of commission for the summer, he is going to make it. Most aren't that lucky. He is growing sadder by the day so I try to keep him uplifted. It is very hard though when I think all the morphine is really draining him out. No one likes to stay in the hospital. And after a while, you automatically start to shut down. I remember on my 3rd week in the hospital is when I really began to feel trapped and I still had 5 more weeks to go. It's normal to break down and want to give up and that is what he is going through right now.

This is to all of you who have Motorcycles, are thinking of getting Motorcycles, and all of those who ride on the back of Motorcycles; Please think again before you get on your bike. There's a lot to lose and you must not be selfish and really think about your loved ones. How and what would your family and friends do if you were killed? Now there are many things in life that are risky just in everyday so I am just wishing that everyone would listen and to not add another risk to your day. All of my fathers friends sold their motorcycles the week of his accident. My dad is done. And if you read this, I really wish for you to reconsider. My dad has been given a spared life. A second chance. No one knows why some are spared others are not but I am soo blessed to still have him with me.

**And to a friend who I know we are at a rough patch right now but please listen to me. You have already been given your spare life. You have to remember that God has already saved you once. Please do not buy a motorcycle. Especially telling me this after I told you about my father. You have an amazing family and amazing friends who would die to see you hurt again.

God Bless all of those who have lost a family member or friend to a Motorcycle accident. Bless your hearts.

Sarah