With all that's going on these days I really didn't believe I could even think about writing but truthfully it's one of the only things I am thinking about so I'm just going to say F it and write! The escape of reality is needed.
Did any one thing change your life? Something you did, something you saw, something you experienced? I have two things that dramatically changed my life.......okay maybe 3.
The 1st being the 1st time I saw a musical. Okay that's a little lie because I did see Camelot when I was 5 or so, and it is a musical that I LOVE till this day and know all the songs off by heart, but at that time I hate to say it but I think I fell asleep. Oops. The second time I went I was around 7, 8 or 9 I believe. I saw The Phantom of the Opera. As soon as the orchestra began and the curtain rose I knew I would never be the same. The musical took over me in a way I can't describe. Those who are suckers for the stage know the feeling. Unexplainable. I was so deeply touched and affected by The Phantom that it became all I could think about. When not at school or an afterschool activity, I was up in my room practicing and portraying the role of Christine. I went on and grew but The Phantom of the Opera will always have a marking on my soul. I knew that's what I HAD to do. I later went on and performed and saw many musicals. They all touch me but there is one more that had a dramatic effect. RENT. I was obsessed with Rent when it 1st debuted in 1996. The kids that I went to school with and I just thought it was the best thing since ever. And it was in a way. I begged my dad to by me the music and it was a double disc CD so I had to do lot of extra chores haha! What I learned from learning that entire score set me up for life, gave me strength, and such ambition. We would always sing and sing and sing all the songs day after day. Finally in Spring of 1999 I was on my way to NYC for my 1st time with my Drama Club and we went to see RENT. It was all and more that I could have ever wished for. I don't know who has not been able to see the musical yet so I will not give away the plot but the life lessons it teaches are astounding. (DO NOT RENT THE MOVIE! YOU MUST SEE IT ON STAGE!)
My second life changing moment was when I began ballet full time after leaving figure skating. I don't know what happened but I LIVED for ballet. It took me somewhere else completely. I felt like nothing could ever be wrong. I became very competitive with myself. I had a purpose and that was to be perfect. I worked my ass off and did very well for myself. I was going to be a ballerina. That was that. And I truly do believe you know what you want to be at a very young age. I had a change of heart at 18. I never had a "real life" and wanted to know what it was all about. I abandon ballet, taking class only a few times a week. I REGRET THAT DECISION TILL THIS DAY. I just don't know how I could leave something that I knew I was born to do. I miss it more than anything. I loved ballet. I still love ballet. It's horrible knowing that you left the thing that you will always love the most.
I'm not going to go into three because I'm sure most of you know what it was and it's not that bright of a topic so we'll just let it be.
All I want to do is dance and I'm going to make sure that happens. I know being a ballerina is no longer in the books for me but I can still dance my little heart out.
So what has changed your life? Maybe a certain CD really hit you and got you thinking, maybe it was a sport you played and you can't get it out of your head? Whatever it may be use it to your advantage. These things don't make permanent markings on us for nothing. Think about it and run with it. You never know where it may lead you. It might lead you right back to where you should have been all along.
Something to think about now isn't it.....
Peace & Love
S
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