This week I did entire sweep through of my childhood bedroom at my parents house. As I was throwing out the old.....and just kept throwing out the old, I came across a large box with a button for closure and a woman in a little black dress. It was my memory box I started back in high school. I hadn't gone through it in a while so I decided last night was better than any. And the things I found gave me the most joy.
From different ribbons I had to wear in my hair for performances, all of my Playbill books from the musicals and plays I've attended in NYC, to the menu from Lara's 25th birthday at Morton's and my audition sticker I wore all week at American Idol. While it's soo crazy seeing all these things at once, it is kind of unique how it is all in one box. Over 10 years of my life in this one box. A ton of concert tickets-Dr. Dre/Snoop 'Up in Smoke Tour', Bush, N'sync, Smashing Pumpkins......A Grandstand ticket to Preakness 2002 I was given by an older man because he thought I was 'very pretty'(Maggie! Remember this hahaha), endless numbers that were given to me to wear during every single audition for Ballet Summer Schools, and a small piece of the WVU newspaper stating that I was a proud new Sister of Kappa Kappa Gamma that starting to darken. These are literally some of the most wonderful times in my life so far.
And then there are the cards and letters. I don't hang onto cards, and all of my 2,000 hospital cards are in a separate bag, so these ones are very special. One is from Bekah in 2004. The front says 'I think I'm finally over my Bad Boy phase' then inside she jokes that maybe one day we will haha and nope not yet we both still love the bad. "I wanted to congratulate you on your jobs! I am soo happy for you! I know you'll start to love the city more than anything. I love and miss you TONS!" I used to cry to Bekah daily about how I didn't like living in the city. A huge envelope reads 'KKG' on the front and contains EVERYTHING from rush week and pref night(which I tried to get out of because i wanted to go home to see Britney Spears). Kappa kind of, in a wierd way, created my life. Every single girl, every single date party, and every single sleepover.
These girls mean the WORLD to me. I have no idea who I would be without them. I am soo lucky to have the same girls I met in 2000 to still be the girls I talk to everyday ten years later. I love them soo much and I have to shut up about sorority because I am beginning to cry my eyes out. Another card I found is from Whitney. She gave it to me a few days before she graduated and we both were having a hard time leaving eachother. "You are such an important factor in my life. You are unlike anyone I have ever met and I feel soo lucky to be friends with you. I have someone in my life that buys a $30 Fairy to hang above your bed that you call and sleep in "the princess loft" and does Britney Spears full out for anyone who asks. You are like a walking happy pill for me. I don't know what I am going to do without you next year. I love you soo much. Your one of those people I am really scared to leave because I wonder how I am going to do without you around on a daily basis." I love that card and I was just in Whitney's wedding last weekend. We have a beautiful friendship. I must mention this card from Maggie as well. I believe from what can figure out that this was sent when I was in my 2nd deep depression. "You are not anyone to me; you are the "anyone" that I tell everything to. I know you are going through a really hard time but we are best friends and WE are going to get through this together. I promise that we are going to look back on this one day and laugh(NO I remember that was a HORRIBLE time. No laughing now or then.). Do and go where you and what you need to be ok & don't think about what everyones going to think. I can't wait to watch Uptown Girls with you for the millionth time! I love you. L&L"." As we all went through our times, we had a horrible time when we lost Allison's little brother to depression resulting in suicide in 2004. I have the tiny blue folded paper with a blue bow that states "In Loving Memory". I always used to tell Allison that I wanted to marry her little brother he was soooo cute. Scott's death had a huge impact on Michelle and me. It still does. She's my little sister and best friend.
Jackie, a high school friend, wrote me a funny letter and I just found a part that I just adore. "I'll always remember you as the cute little ballerina who wears designer clothes(duh) and red lipstick. The girl who decided to dye her hair bright red one day(shut up how funny is that because I just did that now 14 years later!). I really want to stay as cool as we are now. I feel like I am losing a part of myself. P.S. You and Chris Mowod are going to get married just accept it." So funny. Red hair, designer clothes, and Christopher. There are lot's of acceptance and denial letters from Ballet Companies from all over the country, Britney Spears 1st album booklet, sticker photos of Janiene and everything N'Sync. A note from Justin right before we did his choreography in the student choreography show......."Thanks for doing this though it's been hell!I love you and you have a great future in store for you. Break a Pointe Shoe!" Aww I remember I wore make up that night. Like a lot! haha. Hospital bracelets, and a million 'Good Luck' 'Break a Leg', tiny cards from all the many many performances.
To finish this up I will let you read the a letter I wrote to my crush. He was in 5th. And I was really conceited. Just listen. "Here are some photos to remember me by! I'll miss you always!" Okay wait maybe we were bf/gf? Either way still not appropriate! Umm like who does that??? You would think I was giving him sexy photos. There are 3 photos inside. One of me on top of the podium having a gold meddle placed around my neck(conceited), a one sitting really proper doing my good side(conceited), and another in a black dress and patent leather flats about to go to the theatre(conceited). Too funny and just shows that people really don't change too much now do they. I hope you all enjoyed this and if you do not have all of your old memories together, maybe you should start a box as well. BTW as you see I did not bring out any of the folding notes from the boys. I'd be writing forever. Same with the 2 signing books and my high school diary. Another time.Peace & Love
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