I Apologize Even Though I Know It's Lies

There has been all this talk about this video for the song "Love the Way You Lie". It's glamorizing domestic violence, it's creating controversy, and it's based on Rhianna's and E's past troubled relationships. This song was never one one of my absolute favorites off the album because if you own it there are a lot more amazing tracks but the video really got to me. In the span of 3 days, I watched this video on repeat. Over and over and over. Then I got soo hooked on the video, instead of going through my whole Recovery album while I am driving or chilling listening to music and writing, I had number 15 set on repeat. I thought I did a good analyzation of the album when it came out and understanding all of the metaphors used because a lot of the tracks are tricky and if you miss something you can interpret it as something else. Now I am not one to say I KNOW that this is true but I am, after 2 1'2 months going to give you my true finalization of Love the Way You Lie(LTWYL).

This song nor this video are about domestic violence. The video is a lie in itself. It's outstanding and was perfectly put together with Em on this peaceful green of grass(a safe zone). Rhianna starts the video with her infamous chorus and then the magic really occurs. Stated from the director-"I just told them: This is not like a normal film. We have two days on set, and we have to think of it as an acting workshop, because you're going to have to ramp up into emotions in two seconds, you're not going to know what the story is, and you're going to have to trust one another," he explained. "I'm asking them to go from zero to 100 in two seconds, so they were using all their techniques as actors. Dom would be calling her names, she'd be calling him names ... to see them turn it on like that, it was really a fascinating acting study." And they were incredible in these roles and beyond believable. But here where if you listen, over and over and over, you'll see a whole new side to LTWYL. This is my opinion so I don't like to fight so no hate mail please.

Any addicts out there? Ever been in love with a substance so bad that you would fight for it no matter what even though in the end you know you'll sit there and cry about how fucked up this substance has made you. It's a little bit difficult to understand if you haven't but you just have to try to put yourself in the situation. Doing drugs is your main relationship. Nothing comes before that. I don't know why this happens but if you don't have it you feel mad, violent, and are absolutely not using your rational or wise mind. You need your fix and then you'll be fine. As with the title "love the way you lie" kind of explains it all. Drugs lie to you. They make feel good, damn good. And you love it and there just fucking with your brain making you feel this euphoria, but it's a lie and a trick and when it wears off you back at the beginning again. The drugs are lying to you and you hit repeat and start over.

Instead of going over the entire piece, word by word, I'm just going to try to just some up of the key points he makes through out the song. Let's just get this chorus over with....
'Just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's alright because I love the way it hurts/Just gonna stand there and watch me cry but that's alright because I love the way you like, I love the way you lie'. (This screams him speaking of his relationship with his addiction and although he was burning with pain he didn't care cause he loved it too much and even though he knew his addiction was killing him he came to terms with it. His addiction was lying to him, life I stated before you get a wonderful fake euphoria but it's all a lie but he loved the lie and he was artificially happy. Which was also a lie. Plain and simple....he's playing with fire.)

Right away he begins to speak of 'Fight or Fight' mode. Whoever has been in a rehabilitation facility, inpatient or outpatient, or even just in you're therapists office, you will hear this enough to make you want to scream. In relation to what Em says about it is basically he's fighting and fighting(in a tremendous level of terror and panic), I know I have felt like this when my past addictions were in full force and I run out I would immediately go into fight or flight mode, 'as long as the wrong feels right I'm in flight'. When in fight or flight with addiction in mind, you more you use the weaker you become 'the more I love her the more I suffer, I suffocate/And right before I'm about to drown she resuscitates me'. You used and you are okay for the time being. May even refer to withdrawal pains and you just can't take it anymore so you use even though you know your in the wrong. After he's resuscitated he's right back into a relapse, 'were running right back here we go again'. Not a good feeling. The part where he is Superman and she is Lois Lane is when his addiction is at it's best. he's receiving the best highs and feels like nothing can stop him. He's cool and very in control. And then things switch and instead of getting high he has to use more and he's so gone he can't stop, 'I feel so ashamed'.

You ever love somebody so much, You can barely breathe when your with them/
You meet and neither one of you, Even know what hit 'em/
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, Yeah them chills, Used to get 'em/(this is when you 1st begin your addiction and everything feels so right. This is your new love)
Now you're getting fucking sick, Of looking at 'em(Key line in my view. You're addicted and you wanna fucking scream that you have to take the drugs just to get through the day. You're over the Honeymoon Phase.)
Throw 'em down, Pin 'em(Trying to say no and putting it all in the toilet then running back to get more.)

So they say it's best, To go your separate ways/
Guess that they don't know ya, Cause today, That was yesterday/
Yesterday is over, It's a different day/
Sound like broken records, Playin' over/
But you promised her, Next time you'll show restraint/(yeah you lost that a long time ago)
You don't get another chance, Life is no Nintendo game(I think this refers to his overdose in '07 and how close he came to dying. Basically saying you can't hit Reset in real life.)

-Continuation tomorrow. Didn't realize how late it got and how much I write! So what do you guys think about this. Eminem doesn't write songs about chicks and when asked why he used Rhianna on this track all he said was "I thought she could pull it off"

All I know is that Eminem is still very early in his recovery stage. 2 years is nothing. And from my own horrible experiences and others, I know that, it sucks, but it's all you wanna talk about. It's like a bad relationship that you just can't get over. And sometimes you go back to that abusive relationship and start all over again.
P&L
S

CONTINUATION

So were onto the 3rd and final verse. Hope everyone is understanding what I'm getting rather than what is commercially given to you. Either way it's a very passionate extreme song about a love/hate relationship and if you've been there it hits you even harder.

Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean/then we fall back into the same patterns, same routine/(you say you wanna quit, that your done for good, but you just said that to lie to yourself because you go right back to using in your *measured out routine. *Addicts are very obsessive compulsive when it comes to timing and use of your drug. Your days is revolved around this and it comforts you in many ways). But your tempers just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me/When it comes to love your just as blinded, baby please (Drugs are vicious, vicious evil mf's. And they do have tempers of their own and the deeper you become involved the more the two, you and your drug, and connected. So involved you're blinded to what it is doing to your actions and cares.)

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems/Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano, all I know is I love you too much to walk away now (You lie to yourself into what you are thinking and doing isn't crazy it's just helping you get by and you'll be fine. But when an addict meets and falls in love with a hurricane of a drug, nothing can stop you from loving the drama, excitement, and downfalls. You can't leave now.) Over the next final lines he states twice that he's a liar and that everything he does and says are lies. He's tired of all this drama and the on and off desires he has. He wants to quit but he is caught in his lies, he's tired, and quits. Not just the addiction but his life. "I'm just gonna....."

Thanks everyone who reads this and please always look deeper. Don't ever judge a book by it's cover. There's much more behind where you shall find the truth.

Peace & Love

S