Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Sunday, January 2, 2011

You Got the Power to Let Power Go...


**It hurts but I never show, this pain you'll never know
If only you could see just how lonely and how cold
And frostbit I've become, my backs against the wall
When push come to shove I just stand up and scream 'Fuck them all'** -drop the world



2011 Must Haves


10. Eat, Drink, and Be Merry. There is way to much pressure to be thin, not eat good fried food, not drink alcoholic beverages, not go to happy hour with friends but rather go to the fucking gym. This is BULLSHIT! Do whatever you want. Life is short. ENJOY it. If you don't want to go to the gym then don't. If you want that McDonalds Big Mac then have it. Being thin, eating lettuce, and living at the gym 6 hours a day does NOT = Happiness!!!


9. Get Out of Your Comfort Zone. We all get stuck in such a scheduled boring life that most of us forget to live a little or live at all. Go out and date someone who is the opposite of your usual. Dye your 6 different colors in a year(I don this all the time). Be mysterious. And never be that person that other people can automatically know your entire schedule of what you will be doing all week. Wake up, Work, Gym, Shower, and 2 hours of Television will KILL YOU. Leave it while you can.


8. Change your Career. There is nothing worse then being stuck doing something we do not like or ever imagined doing. Go back to when you used to have big dreams for yourself. If you have to, go all the way back to when you were a child. As crazy as this may sound, most of us know what we want to do from a very young age. Those of us doing something about it......maybe 1%. Don't be in that 99%. Look around at all the opportunities available and start making it happen. Don't be scared to leave your job. The only thing that is scarier is staying at your job unhappy.


7. Get Involved in a Charity That You believe In. There is literally nothing better than giving back. I don't even mean money wise. Even though being able to donate a couple thousand is a great stride, doing work for the charity and getting involved with those who it is for is even better. I have always wanted to work for Make-A-Wish. Although I tried numerous times to get a job with Make-A-Wish(the Pittsburgh/WV chapter), I never actually just volunteered for the cause. can you imagine the joy that will be brought to you and the young terminally ill child when you get to tell them that their wish has been granted? It must be one of the greatest highs you can get. Just remember whatever you do-Giving is always more rewarding than getting.


6. Be Spontaneous. This gets harder to do the older we get. I've noticed I'm not even that spontaneous anymore when I used to live by the words of Jonathan Larson "No Day But Today". It's never to let to get it back though. We do only have 1 day. No one knows what will occur tomorrow. And REALLY no one knows whats going to happen in the future. Sitting in your safe zone and going through the motions everyday, isn't living! Go and do the tings you really want to do. before you know it you'll be 50 years old with no great memories to tell your children. Nothing is worse than being boring.


5. Let Go of Your Heart. Don't ever hold back when it comes to love. Love fully and give your all. Yes, we all get nervous to let ourselves go sometimes when it comes to falling head first into love but it's just something you have to do. Don't be scared and if you get hurt, you get hurt. My heart has been broken a lot but you know what? I wouldn't change a damn thing about it. To love someone is the best feeling in the world. Being loved and cared about back is the other best feeling on earth. Live in the moment and say "I love you". As the old saying goes "It is better to have loved and lost than to never loved at all". Always remember this!


4. Be You. Why are we always trying to change for others? Why do we feel like we need others approval to belong? Society and the media built these rules about if we look this way, act that way, and follow these guidelines that life will just be that much sweeter. While in all reality it's actually making your life that much more sour. What happened to just being happy with just who we are? I refuse to give in to what is "supposed" to be. I am what I am and I won't and don't ever want to change that. I love myself for who I am and I hope you all do to. There is no time to try to impress others just to "fit in" when you are really just fabulous the way you are. Never change for anyone!


3. Have Fun. With everything so uptight these days(ex; not being aloud to have a fucking cheeseburger and coke when you want to because you're scared of getting fat), we all need to loosen up these days. Have fun in all spectrum's of your life. Love like crazy, stay up all night dancing the night away with your girlfriends, laugh soo hard that you cry, and always remember "no one makes the rules but you!" I think we have all in a way forgot about fun. We are soo absorbed in money, materialistic things, and beating out on our peers on who can have the most 1st, that we lost the fact that when old and reflecting; a Benz, how many pairs of Christian Louboutin's you have, and the size of your house, are not going to even come to mind. What does come to mind is the time and the fun you had with family and friends and the many many memories happy memories you have.


2. Lose Yourself. Put your all into what your are doing and have the crazy kind of passion that you usually only read about. Throw yourself into your dreams. 100% or nothing. Make it yours. You can do whatever you want but in order to do that and fulfill what you desire you have to "Lose Yourself" in the process. In a matter of times you'll slowly forget about the way you used to do things. You sometimes only get one shot so use the passion and love you have to get what or whom you want. Never hold back!


1. Best Friends. Over the past year and a half I have had this blog I ALWAYS, every month, make sure that at the top of the "Must Haves" list that Best Friends is always number one. I don't know about you guys but my best friends are my saviors, my life, my passion, my fun, my spontaneity, and my loves. Without my everyday talks with the people most important in my life, I don't know how I'd survive. I've always been extremely lucky and had many friends but it's those ones that are like family and can finish your sentences that are the best. I love my family and friends more than I love myself. And i don't even care if that's incorrect behavior because to me, without them, there would be no me. Love, help, cry, laugh, and sing at the top of your lungs with them! Friendships are sooo magical. They are your angels on earth. Be there for the good and the bad. Never judge them EVER! You are very blessed to have these people in your life! I love you to all of my angels. Thank you, thank you!


Peace & Love

S

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Can You Get Me A Green Doll?......cont.


I believe I left off with White Oleander(my second favorite read ever) and tonight I will go over five more Novels, and Auto-Biographies that are "Must Reads" on my list as well. I hope you all are enjoying this and are exciting to begin letting your imagination flow this New Year by starting off with one of these!


MUST READS(cont.)

Go Ask Alice- Anonomous
*Go Ask Alice is one of the first books I ever read on my own. I kept it hidden in my bedroom and I was in 6th or 7th grade. Most of you, I'm assuming, have read, this powerful Diary of a girl who's rebellious ways led her to moving out as a teenager, having many dramatic relationships, living the hippy ways, and always tripping out on Acid. In many ways I loved and still love this book. Alice is somebody who I will never be. And at the time I read it she was everything I was not but dreamed of being. I wanted to be wild and free but instead I was very inhibited and a follower of the rules(minus the music I listened to). Alice reaches the end of the book back at home and clean ready to change her life around just when an old neighbor stops by to say high and gives her a little paper with a smiley face. Just one more time she thought. Well that time was the last for Alice had a bad trip causing her to go insane and kill herself.

Heavier Than Heaven- Charles Cross (also see Cobain Unseen by Charles Cross)
*This book is just one of those books that comes along once and a lifetime and if you were taken by his music, intrigued by his privacy, or/and also shaken that the great genius we all know as Kurt Cobain, had committed suicide at the young age of 27, then this auto-biography will take you through his life step by step. I love this book and have read it literally COUNTLESS times. It's a book that always has to be with me. The way Cross wrote about Kurt's life in such positivity and greatness leaves the reader not being able to book the book down from beginning to end. A must for any music lover. Although Kurt did end his life, you learn that he was in such despair and pain that he could no longer live and provide what was demanded of him. This books takes you through when he was a baby until the end. The story is a tragic one. Not one with many uplifting points. But that was Kurt and he's had "the suicide gene" since he can remember. Best Cobain book out there. My third favorite book ever.


RENT- Jonathan Larson
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To properly get the correct book that i am about to describe let me explain what it looks like so you do not anything but. The book is very long(sort of like a final scrip or score long), it is black but looks very damaged. It is binded by the looks of silver duck tape and painted across the upper center in written RENT in b&w. If you love musical theatre then you have to have this. Anyone who loves musical theatre and is in generation X, like I am, usually placed RENT next to a God like creation. The creator Jonathan Larson had worked on this score for seven year.....never to see it open on Broadway. The story of how Rent became what is is now, which is legendary, is something for you all to read. It's magical and poetic and leaves both tears of sadness and joy. I will not give anymore away. I was lucky enough to see this two times on Broadway and when I think about it I still get chills.


Glamorama- Bret Easton Ellis
*This is the 3rd novel by Bret Easton Ellis on a list of my ten favorite all time books. As you can start to notice, I am just enthralled by his writing. The piece, Glamorama, is extremely hard to explain. I really don't know where to start but "I see specks". A line you'll see often throughout this long masterpiece. A very fucked up book about a guy that is also just as fucked up as the book. All I can say is please read it. You will not put it down and you will most likely have to read each page twice from being so taken off guard. It is worth every minute you spend on it. A twisted, open ended, piece of life seen through the eyes of a NYC yuppie. Written shortly after American Psycho.


Britney: Inside the Dream- Steve Dennis
*Steve Dennis finished this book about a year after Britney Spears' public breakdown. As a young girl and now as a woman I have and will always idolize Britney Spears. I see her, as do a lot of others, as a VERY fascinating individual. But that here is the problem. I remember in high school dancing to Britney with my best friend and saying "ohh I wish I was Britney!" Well be careful what you wish for. Now I see, as an adult, Britney leads a very uncharming life. This book takes you through all of the highs and lows of her entire life so far. She lived under a microscope, barely able to leave her house, has never had a real friend, gotten married twice just to feel the love and security from a man, which she never had from her alcoholic father who is now her Conservator. The whole thing is like one bad dream no one ever wanted to see. Her stunted mental growth along with the many mental issues Britney struggles with, leaves her life in the hands of the court. It's not a way to live. But on the other hand she is our Queen of Pop, our royalty. Please read this book just to understand what a day is like for this woman.


Ahh!!! And we are finished! So those are my top 10 books at the moment and of all time. Please check them out. The best place to purchase these is at www.amazon.com and you won't be disappointed. I promise you.


Peace & Love
S


For an Endless Song That Never Starts



I'm Completely Falling
But You Beat Me Down
Must You Always Win
Teasing With Your Evil Heart
Crawling Through Cobwebs of Mess
I Feel Your Lips
I'm So High On This Ground
Why Am I Still Down




P&L
S