It's Now My Duty

'One baby to another says I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
I travel through a tube and end up in your infection'

-Drain You

Another Day, Another Drama

There was some great stuff I missed out on this week while I was just "living the dream" (please enter sarcastic crack in voice), so let's catch up!

1. Kanye and Jay-Z putting out a 5 track album together. Pretty tight! I do think though that Kanye neds to chills with the use of his facebook and twitter account. I mean I didn't even remember that I was a fan of Kanye(of course I am but he was mia for so long that he definitely wasn't popping up on my news feed every minute with notes he writes and new blogs he's posting.) Aside from that though, Mr, West tweeted "Me and jay bout to drop a 5 song album called Watch the Throne." Awesome. I'm sure we'll all be getting it and I'm pumped for some new Kanye but just to take it back for a sec when Kayne didn't write so many well proposed blogs:
Kanye Does Not Apologize For Wearing Fur: In a since-deleted post, Kanye went once more into the blog breach, giving PETA the bird and generally saying "haters to the left" to anyone else who had a problem with he and girlfriend Amber Rose rocking fur at Fashion Week.
2. September 10th you're butt better be out getting my girl Taylor Momsan's band "The Pretty Reckless", 1st full album. According to Perez Hilton, who usually is negative about Taylor(basically because she's awesome and rocks), but gave her album amazing reviews and addmitted that the girl was damn talented. And my favorite fashionista!

3. Supposedly Heidi Montag has to wear nose tape so her nose doesn't fall off. Heidi's plastic surgeon recently passed away(prob shot for a bad boob job or something), and now she says she will forever wear tape on her nose. That's soo freakin' cool. Such a trendsetter. On other news(mtv.com): Spencer Pratt, who is threatening to release the footage if Heidi doesn't try to reconcile with him, seems really proud of the scandal he's drummed up. He tweeted that the hot 'n' heavy vid is going to be his claim to famedom (dude expects his camerawork to be as meaningful as Picasso's art!). Meanwhile, Spencer's co-star in the film has been hiding out in Costa Rica while simultaneously being courted by her estranged hubby. Thankfully Heidi's former bestie Jen Bunney, who she dumped back in June, is on her way to save the day. Or something.

Ohh and I guess Kristin Cavalari never went to Europe(obviously) but she just tweeted that to Audrina so everyone would know it was fake. WTF am I writing about right now. This Hills?! Am I serous??? Moving on!

4. Britney Spears has been spotted wearing bikini's EVERYWHERE. Supposedly this is a big deal because, no lie, it did come up when my yahoo news homepage came up today. Wow.

5. Snooki's(the 4'5'' chick from jerz) bf is trying to reenact Eminem's track "Spacebound" by actually following the lyrics advise and "And before I put that gun to my temple
" but instead he put it up to his ex gf's head. he received a restraining order cause that's definitely all the punishment you should get for that. And that dumb jersey girl is still dating this person? I had a guy try to take my phone away from me and that's when I peace the f out. If I had a bf own a gun, 1st off, then put it up to his ex's head, man I would be the one getting restraining orders. NOT COOL PEOPLE! And P.S. I don't watch that show anymore but I keep reading that last nights was like intense so if you know what went down please fill me in! Thanks!

6. Actress Lindsay Lohan is fresh out of rehab and back on Twitter. Lohan was released early from a substance abuse program at the UCLA Medical Center on Tuesday, following 14 days in jail. The actress was not allowed to tweet the entire time she was in jail or in rehab. Her last tweet was posted July 19, just hours before she entered jail. Umm yeah guess that's what's truely important here that she can tweet again. Yep....totally.
Peace out painkillers, trazadone(still don't understand why that had to go), adderall(aka what is now called legalized meth), and her prozac. That's my old list of scripts so I feel ya Linds. Taking away yur prozac and traz should not have been permitted though! BTW LOVE the FU nails! *photographed above.

Thanks all for today kids. Hey and if you have gossip go ahead and send it my way because I'm a loser and don't read this shit anymore or watch it, but now that I just wrote all that crap out I totally see why I quit, send it off my way!

P & L
S

Baby Come On Control Me

WHOA....so I am going to totally half ass this because I know that most of you, including myself, love to hear and watch this shit for 20 minutes a week and then don't want to hear about it for another week. That being said, yep you guessed it, were going to do a quick run through of The Hills season 9,000. Starring Kristin, Brody, Audrina, Ryan Cabrara(seriously Audrina? I mean really now), Steph, Holly, my arch nemesis Lo(sorry but I just cannot stand the girl. She is boring. Very boring), Brody's bff(And who is he again?), and the lovely Mr. and Mrs. Spencer and Heidi Pratt. The last two characters/maybe real life people/lets just hope they are characters cause they scare the shit out of me; are those we will concentrate on this evening. Now please everyone gather and bring your Crystals because were going into the "war zone."

I'm really good at psychology and can usually diagnosis someone within a 2 minute rate. Spencer was a pretty normal nornal guy like the rest of guys in their 20's should be but I believe it was around when Lauren actually started to stand up for herself I saw a change in his behavior. Now for expertise on all of this we would have to bring in my best friend Tera, who is a self admitted Hills addict, to decipher if I am correct but she is unable to help out on this at the moment so let's just take my word. Then I took a hiatus from The Hills because Lauren began to get very boring on me then she brought that really boring Lo on and they were mean to the only cool one on the show, Audrina, so I got sick of all the rich bitch drama. Last year I think I watched it but all I can remember is that they were all mean to Kristen and Brody was dating that transvestite looking girl who I wish I could remember her name. She just didn't seem like a nice person at all. And Justin Bobby was riding around on his motorcycle being a true pimp like always. (Love that kid!)

So now on Final Season, we are truly getting into the deeper and true meaning of what we all call The Hills. It stared months back when we would be in Target looking at the tabloids while in line and seeing Heidi. I immediately jumped to "Why Heidi Why!" I am NOT trying to be mean or disrespectful to anyone who likes Heidi or knows Heidi personally(which I don't think any of my readers do but you never know), but I feel (2 min psyc eval) she has a serious case of body dysmorphia, depersonalization disorder, and let's add 3 dash's of pure crazy. So in the previous season or maybe even the season before that she got her nose and boobs done. I can't judge that with her living in Hollywood and being young with money. BUT at a later date in 2010 she had somehow concluded that if she got a whole new face and body she'd be a very happy person. Having your ears pinned back, new nose job, lipo on her inner thighs(ouch), lipo other places, a big butt implant, eyebrow lift, cheek injections, her chin was shaved down, huge lip injections, and her brand new I don't know how she walks, breasts; could never bring true happiness. I think I got it all but if I don't feel free to add in. The poor girl looks like a whole other girl. Like a porn star-bad facelift-and boobs made for clowns. I really did think she was pretty on the 1st season too. But don't worry she still wants to upgrade those EEE boobs. "I really want them to be like H's for Heidi"

Now onto where the true crazy lies......Spencer Pratt. He began this season with his crystal collection which apparently protects him from almost everything evil the world could bring but in exchange I think Spencer sold his soul because I have NEVER met or seen a person with his type of behaviors. I'll try to do my (2 min psych eval) but I don't even think I can unlock the true madness inside the mind of Spencer Pratt. Let's list a good amount to make sure we get them all........Delusional Disorder, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Adjustment Disorder, OCD, Depersonalization Disorder, and a large dash of just plain good old psychosis. Okay some of these I cheated on and went under psych disorders and found. The Narcissistic Personality Disorder is great! It's soo Patrick Bateman. Now let's hope Mr. Pratt doesn't turn into a real life Bateman but at this point he's acting soo scary I wouldn't even want to be in the same room. The past few episodes have shown Spencers withdrawal from the social world. He said 2 weeks ago "I don't have a sister. Who said I have a sister. That was in my past life." Then Holly visits The Pratt residence and he begins to "scream at her calling her and Heidi's mother just a vagina that Heidi came out of and that she is nothing to him."

So we know they own $400,000 worth of "magic crystals". "This one is for geniuses. It opens your mind to everything...and helps you to really think when you're in a war zone." Okay what? Please describe what your translation of a War Zone is. The as Heidi sits there with her permanent happy-dumb face, nodding, Spencer tells the gang that "Heidi is allowed no television, no internet, no phones, all shes allowed to do is read and write poetry, pet puppys, and pray."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cvkbjzYT5aE

MUST WATCH

Great Quotes from the Pratts

Spencer Pratt: "I'm trying to live a more positive, holy life, but it takes work. It's hard not sinning, you know?"
Spencer Pratt: "Jesus and I are making the connection."
Heidi Mintage: "Spencer didn't change me. I changed myself"
Spencer Pratt: "Honestly, Brody, I'm worried about you. You're the one showing up to all these events wasted. Maybe you need crystal therapy to sober up. Connect with nature and not the bottle, you drunk."
Spencer Pratt: "I line the windows with crystals, keep bad spirits out but keep Heidi locked in."
Spencer Pratt: “It’s true, I have a Marine in the house. He’s helping me write a script. And yes, we’ve been out of the house only three times this month, but that’s because I’m busy working on several business ventures.”

Alright I'm out....enough talk of this mess.

Peace & Love,
S

Silicone, Saline, Poisen, Inject Me

I don't watch TV much but I often find myself watching the trashy shows with Dr. Phil. Sex rehab, celeb rehab, and sober house have been catching my eye.(with the help of my friend Michelle who basically lives for this stuff. Today we are just going to talk about one specific person but I think they are all very interesting people, to say the least.

Her name: Kari Ann Peniche. To me, Keri Ann adds all the excitement in this f'd up mess.....Kari Ann Peniche! Below is a brief little bio because really what do we know about Keri Ann besides she currently hold the title of crazy meth queen. Really crazy meth queen!

Okay she was born and 1984 and was a pageant girl. That's what I'm getting for profession and career. Okay whatever let's move onto the good stuff.....
In September 2006 Aaron Carter, then 18 years old, proposed to Peniche while they were onstage in Las Vegas, Nevada. They had known each other five days. Peniche, who had previously dated his older brother Nick, agreed. The engagement was broken off six days later. On August 17, 2009, a home video was posted on the website Gawker that showed Peniche with married couple and actors Eric Dane and Rebecca Gayheart. All three are naked, though the video does not contain any sexual acts. Starting in November 2009, Peniche appeared as a patient on the VH1 television show Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew, a documentary series about the treatment process for sexual addiction (filmed in April 2009) at the Pasadena Recovery Center (PRC). Peniche described herself as having hundreds of lovers, but being unable to emotionally connect with anyone or have any kind of relationship. Peniche's participation in the treatment program was marred by her aggressive and erratic behavior; verbally abusing the staff and other patients, refusing to participate in group discussions or obey rules, and voicing various bizarre or paranoid ideations, such as that people were laughing at her when they clearly weren't and smiling uncontrollably even when she was angry or discussing very sad topics. Dr. Pinsky, the treating physician, became suspicious that she was using illicit substances such as methamphetamine or had been prior to being admitted, and the staff psychiatrist diagnosed her as having Borderline Personality Disorder. It was indicated that both conditions require treatment before any treatment can be done for sexual addiction.[15] Eventually, her behavior became so disruptive to the program that Dr. Pinsky was forced to discharge her involuntarily. Pinsky offered her an alternative program at a psychiatric hospital nearby, but she refused.[16][17] Her reaction to this perceived rejection was severe: she resorting to verbally abusing staff members and making suicidal gestures. A PE Team had to be summoned with the police for a possible involuntary psychiatric hold, but this was determined to be unnecessary. Peniche left the Pasadena Recovery Center, but threw a bottle of water at resident technician Shelley Sprague as she exited the program.

Later, during production of the third season of Celebrity Rehab, Peniche contacted Pinsky, asking for help. Pinsky explains that her aggressive behavior during Sex Rehab was derived from drugs she smuggled in a teddy bear, and which were difficult to detect during drug testing because of the medication Peniche took for attention deficit disorder. Pinsky went to her residence, where Peniche showed him the crystal meth she was using. She was shown returning to the Pasadena Recovery Center (PRC) at the end of that season's fourth episode. (wikipedia)


GREAT stuff! I personally love Keri Ann. She may be temperamental at times and act absolutely insane at others, but I believe she is just a troubled girl who really needs her family! Where are they? The borderline personality disorder also adds a lot to why she acts the way she does and the fact that she has been using Meth really makes the spark in her character. If you use for a long time you're going to have a horrible time coming down and facing life soberly again. I guess that's what this sober house is about. We had out own version of "Keri Ann" when I was in my place of rehabilitation. The girl was awfully mean to us but I knew she had a good heart and was just going through a lot of horrible things.

My favorite is when Keri Ann enters the Sober House, fails her drug test, and then swears she didn't do it and starts throwing on of her classic fits. I wish the best for her and also wish her a clean and healthy lifestyle. Getting off drugs isn't easy kids so when you watch these shows and see the trama that occurs, just remember that.

Peace & Love

S

Show Me Your Teeth

I feel like discussing fashion right now. You see I've been on a huge shopping spree(ok ok I lied it wasn't huge, I'm not rich, I just got my tax return and ya know it was time to spend since the Blizzard held me back last week). Let's just start with things I purchased. A strapless black crazy bird looking ripped up dress. It's fucking fabulous. I have been with Elizabeth and James from the beginning and I must say they are taking their pieces to a new level. When we 1st started getting E&J in winter '07 the line was basically an Olsen Twin. I was immediately in love. Gosh I can't remember my 1st piece from the line???? Humm I believe it was a white tee with a side pocket on the right. Ripped and used looking. Think Mary-Kate. But as I watch the line evolve I now see STAPLE pieces. FABULOUS staple pieces. Romantic blouses, tailored coats, and classic cocktail dresses with a twist. Over the past 4 years the line has, in fact, changed. Went from more of a rugged rock & roll look to a chic saavy rock & roll look. Anyways LOVE the line, always have and always will. Go on now and get your Elizabeth and James on!

And then I went on a search for a perfect pair of new jeans! I hate jeans actually and would rather wear a dress with ripped tights any day but you have to have jeans soooo....I tried a lot but finally settled on a great pair of J BRAND Denim Legging Low-Rise Skinny Leg jeans hahahaha. There is all the info on the fabulous piece of denim! Style # 901. Get them. You won't regret it. They make your ass look stunning and that's a promise(well you have to have a nice ass to begin with but you get the idea). I would have never thought to buy these great Denim Leggings if I hadn't purchased my 1st of Joe's Black Legging Pants, which I throw on literally everyday. So is you are behind on the new look(some bitch actually thanked me for being ahead on the trend. Duh!), I would suggest starting with the Joe's because they are a gift from God and then really just go and try on all the new delishious denim out there. These worked for me but maybe not for you.

And last I picked up a grungy looking tank dress by House of Gods. This line is dedicated to projecting rock and roll icons onto clothes. I love it! I love music, I dig the look of this line, and I just can't express how fond of it I am. So my dress has Iggy Pop on the front and his name on the back. It's done in a black, white, and grey. Although they are of course attached, the look of the dress is a black ripped up tank dress underneath and a smaller white distressed tank dress over top. Simply fab. I just tried it on with black fishnets and these amazing boots I purchased at PUMA. Just add some fun chain jewelry and a neon green Balenciaga and your good to go!

Be creative. Make your own style. Be yourself. And have fun with it. And if you have any questions I'm here for ya.

Peace & Love

S

P.S. I found the bag in the photo above on my favorite shopping site www.net-a-porter.com and its absolutely hilarious! Lets take it back to Season 2 I think of Sex and the City when Big gives Carry a bird clutch. Ohh sooo awful! But if you into that type of thing you an buy this baby for just $3,695. MUAH!

Riders On The Storm

As I was sitting here this morning writing my New Year's Resolutions, I was reminded that I had never made New Year Resolutions before because I never really thought I'd make it through another year. But here I am and I'm confidant I'll do great in 2010 so I am definetly going to complete them. But before I can get to those I would like to rewind to the beginning of 2009. This year has been a whirlwind to say the least and it has been one of my favorite years ever even with the horrific events.

It's all kind of blurry. Like blurry enough to say I don't remember the 1st 15 days of January but an old bank statement tells me I shopped at Nordstroms, Burberry, and I rented movies from blockbuster. Other than that, I have NO idea besides I was working a lot. On the 16th I was admitted into COPE on the 8th floor of WPIC. I think if I hadn't gotten help on that day, even though I went kicking and screaming, I wouldn't have lasted much longer. It's crazy what malnutrition can do to the brain. It erased my memory and as I read about all of this craziness I found that to be common. I didn't progress fast and I wasn't aloud out until I got my weight up to 105. So at 83 pounds, 105 really didn't seem that far but it's wayyyy more difficult than that. This was the absolute hardest thing I have ever done and hope to have ever done in my life. Not being aloud freedom for 56 days will really make you appreciate everything just a tad bit more. Just the thought of being able to drive again seemed like a luxury to me. I was finally discharged. Much bigger, and much happier due to my savior of a psychiatrist. I also left with amazing friends, people who understood me, really fucking cool people. I was rarely in Pittsburgh and spent most of my time traveling and visiting my best friends. It was definitely something I needed to do because after something like that you really just need to get out of town. I dated a lot and found a touch of love in each one. The rest of the year was dedicated to me staying healthy and happy. In which I did but I have a LOT of people to thank for that; Maggie Andres, Emily Kinnard, Kara Santilli, Liz Greim, Kalie Davis, Joanna O'Donelle, Kate Gross, Kate Pawlowski, Noreen Daniello, Leah Swanson, Jen Aikens, Tiffany Hadley, Shelly Kocsuta, Liz Duigou, Ashley Madia, (Erin, Scott, Megan, Sasha, Sarah, Nicole), Michelle Mantooth, Tera Bowden, Whitney Moore, Aaron Brehove, Bekah Cann, Allison Connors, Carolyn Romano, Blare O'toole, Keith Gerlack, Maggie McKee, Anna Wolf, Whitney Brown, Lara Patrinos, Ryan Mullen, Laura Leimkuler, Katie Newcamp, Julie Eisert, Michael Burns, Dominique Deliere, Melissa Koestner, Joe Johnston, and my dear dear supportive family.

Now I would like to put out my inputs on what was the best and what was the worst this year!

Music that I listened to most....old and new!
-Lady GaGa. She's my inspiration currently. Amazing artist.
-Radiohead.
-Nirvana.
-Britney Spears. I really hope she is free again soon. Can you imagine living under a conservatorship at 28? Bless her heart. I'm glad to see she's doing better. I hope it continues.
-Eminem. If you don't already have Relapse, please go get it. Especially if you ever suffered from depression. This album helped me.
-Taylor Swift. This little one is simply a spot of sunshine. AMAZING!
-Muse.

Favorite songs of 2009!
-If U Seek Amy
-Paparazzi
-3am
-Beautiful
-You're Not Sorry

Most inspirational people!
-Barak Obama (sorry Blare)
-Taylor Swift
-Eminem
-And my best friends!!!! You're all my biggest inspiration.

Favorite Books This year!
-I really cannot do this because I read the same books over and over and over if I really love them. There are a couple new ones I discovered that I love and you should check out too.
-Chelsea Handler's Are You There, Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea.
-Marya Hornbacher's Wasted...A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia
-Cobain-By the Editors of Rolling Stone. yes yes I know another Kurt book but this one is awesome. It's basically great stories of the time all of these journalists spent with him. More as a celebration on his life then the usual tragedy piece.

Favorite in Sports!
-Rafael Nadal. Enough said.
-Also congrats the Steelers and Penguins for making my hometown the "city of chamions"(that's for you Bek)

Well that's about all on 2009. If any of you are wondering.....yes, I am still living like a complete gypsy and loving every minute of it. I really do miss my books, CD's, and DVD's though, and my beautiful bed, and my many vintage decorations. But most of all I miss my gorgeous fairy that hangs from my bed post. Can't wait to have the things back in my life when I finally settle somewhere but as for my plans for 2010, settling somewhere is not involved by any means!

Live, Love, Laugh, Dance, Sing at the top of your lungs, Be Crazy, Never Quit Your Dreams, Always go after what and who you want, Go to the Movies by Yourself, Treat Yourself once and a While to Something You Can't Afford, Fall Madly in Love even though You may Get Hurt(story of my life! but I wouldn't trade it for a thing), Spend Ever Extra Second with Those You Love, And NEVER settle for Anything Less than Butterflies!

Life is too short and you truly NEVER know what day may be your last. I think I'm madly in love with my new positive outlook haha!

Peace & Love,

S

Whore You Laid, Dream You Stole

Last evening I was in amazing luck and got to go see Emilie Autumn's "Asylum Tour", right along with her Bloody Crumpets in tow. Now I had heard of Emilie through her working with Courtney Love, who I adore, so I was quite excited to see the Asylum show. I knew it would be a lot of theatrics and a lot of screaming and a lot of craziness.......but ohh was it more!

Now for a quick bio......Courtney Love's "anarchy violinist" returns to the stage and is keeping the spotlight all to herself. With appearances on Leno and Letterman, glossy magazine covers, and guest spots on the albums of such artists as Love, Otep, Billy Corgan, and TV's "Metalocalypse," under her corset strings, Emilie Autumn's devilishly dark lyrics, metal-shredding violin solos, and industrial-strength voice reinvent "gothic" for the masses, and goths have never had so much fun. Chosen by Interview Magazine as one of their "14 Artists to Watch," the Los Angeles-born starlet's theatrical stage show is a sexy circus of glam-rock burlesque, backed by a scantily-clad girl band known to EA's devoted fans as the Bloody Crumpets.

So with that I would like to add my experience at the Asylum. It was bloody madness and fabulousness! The show started with her back up Crumpets. They were all adorned with wildly colored hair, phenomenal lingerie get ups, and very made up faces. The stage was decked out in things you would find laying around in a glorified insane asylum. Scary candles, a huge clock, wheelchairs, and such. And then out came Emilie with a rats mask covered in rhinestones and wildly fun orange-red long hair. She's was very petite but her voice spoke beyond that. All of the songs were done in perfection and choreography containing very seductive dancing and make out sessions between Emilie and her Bloody Crumpets. It was more of a theatrical musical then just a concert. It was amazing and I recommend going to see the "Asylum Tour" when it comes to a town near you! Ohh but one thing....if your a cookie cutter plain old US citizen, I do not recommend. You may be offended by the show and the people that attend such a show. That would also mean that you may be offended by me who would die to be a Bloody Crumpet! muah muah muah

http://www.emilieautumn.com/dates.html

Peace and Love

S