The Bass is Feelin' Nice

MAY MUST HAVES!

10. Britney Tickets-Hello this is obviously going to be the hottest thing going this summer. Brit's album is so fierce that I just know she is going to bring it! I don't know a soul who isn't going, but hurry because Britney selected very few cities this year and tickets will be going fast. She's even only doing one show at the Staples Center!

9. Lace Shorts-GORGEOUS! Black, beige, and even white lace shorts can dress up a casual tee look in a micro second. Or pair it with a boyfriend blazer and a sky high nude stiletto for a night out look.

8. Spring-Spring into it! Get those winter clothes and blues put away and let the past be the past. Even though it still be a little chilly where you are, go out and try on sundresses to get you looking forward to the sun and lemonade.

7. Pastel Polish-This is cute and all but I highly doubt I will follow this trend. My heart is still with the blacks, navys, greens, and deep purples.....BUT I do have a couple wonderful colors that I discovered shopping today that would fit the bill just fine. Butter London Polish in *Cheeky Chomps or *Yummy Mummy.

6. Being healthy in Mind and Spirit-You only live once so make every effort you can to make sure you are pleased in all aspects of your life. If one if out of place it can begin a domino effect leaving you lost and wondering. Just relax and enjoy life because you never know when it may be your last.

5. White iPhone4-Wow finally. It took about 8 months for Apple to finally release this one. I am very upset because I did put away the cash to get the iPhone in white and now is not a great time monetary wise. Damn you Apple! I still think the white is going to be great for the iPhone 4th generation and quite chic.

4. Audrina(from The Hills)-hahahaha sooo just kidding. So this girl and her family has a reality show. I made it through 2 minutes. I had no idea where Audrina was looking, I couldn't stand watching her shoot bikini pics after I saw what she eats(nothing!), there is really no dialogue because Audrina is very quite and boring so nothing fun was coming out of her mouth, and her mom is right up there with Dina Lohan. Please take it off the air immediately. Thank you.

3. Deleting Your Facebook Account-I swear I hear the word "facebook" or "well I wrote it on your wall" or looking at where people have "checked in" to. I don't even know what the last one means. Why the hell would you want people to know where your at? Weird. It's time to put a serious end to this trend.

2. Orange Lips-My favorite thing about the spring. I LOVE a bring lipstick and I LOVE a great fabulous orange. I tried and have the Make Up Forever lipstick in Satin Bright Orange(40) with a top coat of gloss in Make Up Forever's Diamond Collection shade(D20). Go to your local Sephora to have a specialist pick out a few shades that will match your skin tone. Everyone can wear it!

1. Best Friends!

P&L

S

Your Guard is Up, and I Know Why....

I'm home right now in Pittsburgh, PA. Where it is currently(haha j/k, I meant permanently) raining, cold, dark, and dreary. While having a little time to go through my photo albums and boxes of books that couldn't make the move, I pulled out my 12 Step Book. Now not that I believe the 12 Steps work or don't work(I think that is up to you on how you wish to recover), but I do STRONGLY agree in Step 8 and 9! We'll get to that in a minute. I spent over half a year helping someone who used and abused me to death.....okay I'll take away the abuse.....no let's actually keep that in there because you did abuse me in the sense that I was on this earth to help them. Me, being the kind soul I unfortunately am, will basically help absolutely anyone who asks. I've been to hell and back a few times so I know what it's like and you sure do need that shoulder to cry on and a confidant who will never tell your secrets. So there I was helping, worrying, crying when they would disappear to go on a bender for a couple days and not tell me, and pretty much just walked all over. Being the state that they were in, I know from my personal experiences, they did not mean or even know that they were treating me this way. Anyways lets move on.

Back to Step 8 please-make a list of all persons we have harmed, and become willing to make amends to them all. DING DING DING!!!! Now that your sanity is restored I just have a little question.....where in the world is my letter? I'm completely being real right now and I'm feeling tonight and I want to know where the heck is my letter or my (9.)Direct Amends. Phone call??? And I wouldn't be going through any of this with my readers and the person this is directed to if I didn't have almost the exact same issues. I know we love and care for each other very much soo but when should I start to feel hurt from the lack of acknowledgement? Here's some tips dear on how you can fix this all up!

Dear Sarah,
Thank you for helping me through the worst part of my life and always being there for me. You helped SAVE MY LIFE.
Sincerely,
Blank

Done. Soo easy but I mean I would hope you'd have more to say than that but just that would be kind and recognizing Step 8&9 in the 12 Steps. Or even maybe like a "Thank you for keeping me out of even more trouble I could have got into and for ALWAYS helping me out financially. Ohh and keeping a huge secret that you could only talk to your therapist about." Love, BLANK

Either way done and done. I am soo proud of you and even more proud that you have found happiness. Not a day goes by when you don't run though my mind at one time or another. But this is how I am when I am in this town. Let's just say I am excited to get back to LA because at least there I focus on myself. I live to give others advice on some of the things I have went through, what it takes it pick it all back up, and how to live minute by minute-day by day. But I guess I did something wrong. Yes, I probably babied you too much but hey what else was I supposed to do? You were on a very low maturity level at the time and that's what I thought was best. I HATE tough love so I don't use it.

So my best suggestion is to hull ass to Hallmark, pick up a card and just let me know that you appreciated everything I have done. Your ********* have my address.

That's it. And you know what, I highly doubt I would be even thinking of this if I weren't in pgh. You and I both know how wonderful it is to escape from the past and start fresh. I hope you are somewhere gorgeous and the sun is always shining. Like we had planned before, you know you can always come where I am and stay for a year or two there. You're soo freaking sweet that I cannot be mad. This is more of a protocol thing. You know I don't ever have it in me to be mean to you.

With that all said, I am now going to go watch on Demand my favorite episode of Glee. It's titled Grilled Cheesus. Everyone watch it if you haven't already. It's one of my all time favorite episodes. Okay totally way off the subject there but do watch it! Moving on....

Everyone do not forget to say your prayers and keep your spirituality high. There is never a gift that is as precious as being happy and healthy so for all of you that are please remember that is a true blessing. I know you're there now.

Love & Loyalty

S

I'm Like Still, Y'all Don't Know Me, Shit!

Ohh lovely blog how you've grown over the year. Went from 0 to over 1,000 peeps now. Thank you sooo much from the bottom of my heart and Happy Fuckin' New Year!!!


So let's reflect. That's what you do when a new year begins.....right? Well let's try it. 2010 was an okay year. Nothing great. Nothing horrible. Just okay. When I began 2010, I believe I was a little down. Nothing tragic or anything I've felt in the past but just a little down. Cause=Unknown. Going into this year I don't feel down at all, but actually very joyful and positive. I've learned a lot this year I guess you can say. And, once again, I had to grow very thick skin and fight. Something I'm beginning to get used to. My trust has been horribly battered and I have a hard time opening up to people now. You'll see why in a little. Let's begin with the okay things......


I was very honored to be in and watch two of my best friends get married. Those days were just shining and everything was magic! I am that bridesmaid that will cry the ENTIRE ceremony. NEVER thought I would be that girl. We all know my thoughts on weddings and how I am just not the big wedding type, but ohh to see my best friends do it is just a breath taking experience. All of the showers, and bachlorette party's, and vaca's kept me pretty busy. And that's what I portrayed....a busy busy girl. But in all reality, I was anything but busy. I was actually overwhelmingly bored. Bored to death. I wanted to move, but to where I didn't know. DC, Charlotte, Baltimore, had all been on the list for a while but I never LOVED those cities. I loved the people in them but didn't feel that "now this is for me" ever while I was in them. I may even like Pittsburgh, PA better and we all know how I feel about Pittsburgh and how it gives me the chills and nausea when i am in it! So I did something really random. I called up(ok not really hahaha. I facebook messaged) an old friend from high school and we started talking a lot and I had always wanted to go to Los Angeles; So I picked up and left for a couple weeks in Southern Cali. Never thinking I would die for it(I'm more of a NYC girl), well I did. I knew instantly almost that thats where I wanted to move. Everything there was slower. Everybody was soo artistic and out there. Days of the week and time didn't matter. And the best was you can be at Fred Segal then a hop skip and jump away be looking at the ocean. It was HEAVEN! It was me.



(The paragraph that follows is written for those who have been or are in recovery from substance abuse. Bless you and please know there is an end if you want it bad enough.)

I couldn't go to L.A. right away and am actually leaving in 12 1/2 days from now as I am writing this haha. My summer move was pushed to the side when my father was in a horrible motorcycle in the beginning of May. It broke me. Literally killed me. And although in the long run he would be fine(and he is!!!), I couldn't come to terms and deal with it. I was prescribed a drug in April called Adderall. I'm sure you all have tried that once or twice if you had gone to college or if you have a touch of ADHD like I do. Now up until that point I really hadn't done much with it and had rarely even taken the full recommended dosage each day. I did not want to start relying on a drug everyday to help my concentration but if you know anything about adderall you know it's just a form of speed and the high you get it wonderful and very addictive. And if you know me, I have a high tendency to be drawn to addiction and have had problems in the past with this as well. And then my Dad and then there I was bad to my old habits. To get through the two and a half months my dad was in the hospital and rehab, I went right back to my comfort zone of numbing myself. I did though, surprisingly, never returned to drinking alcohol. I had quit drinking in February and that is one thing I was not going to give in to. So I went and went and went and went and went until one day in August, after being strung out for almost 5 months, I just dropped. My electrolytes were out of whack due to my dehydration and lack of food. I had lost a good 10 pounds by this point. And I was severely exhausted. I only slept 2-4 hours a night during all this. I wanted this damn drug away from me. It was ruining my life. So I tried to quit. Lasted 3 days. Tried again a couple weeks later. Lasted 3 days. Tried again and tried and tried. As much as I hated this pill and what it did, I also was madly in love with it and could not quit it on my own. Let me also mention that I I also had every side affect in the book but don't worry that wasn't stopping me. I DID NOT want to go back to rehab so I became REALLY fucking strong. I gave the bottle, and paper prescriptions to friends. Hiding only about 3 in my wallet which I took later on that evening. I stayed up like usual (it was soo bad by bedtime was around 10am and if I had things to do in the morning I would just not sleep at all) and then finally surrendered. 6 days of miserableness, crying, sweating, puking, and being completely lethargic.......I woke up at one point and I knew it was over and I was gonna be okay. Tears of joy streamed down my cheeks for weeks afterwards. I don't know who and who hasn't gone through an addiction but your free when it's over. I look at it now like a horrible dream. My sleeping still isn't back to normal and I am almost back to my old weight. All I can say is that we all deal with hard times differently. Never judge anyone because you have no idea what that person may be going through. Special thanks to my friends and parents, especially Doody.



Did I say we were going to start with the good stuff? Humm good stuff......ummm well I got really awesome new Prada sunglasses, but mainly my father making it through this accident is the best "good stuff" I got for you! Other things I was "okay" with in 2010 include Eminem's "Recovery" album, T. Swizzles "Speak Now" album, and the "When You're Strange" movie about the Doors. Those were some good things. Also the song "Runaway"(not the AWFUL "movie"), by Kanye West. There is someone who came to me to ask for help and I am still learning. Sometimes my advise isn't that great but it works and together we are getting though something and I love him. My friends, of course, played a huge part in 2010. I give my all to them. They are priceless treasures surrounded by shining stars and I just wish they could be with me at all times. We may be far apart but distance sure never made us grow apart for any of us. Love you all. Doody, You can speak on my behalf through anything and be completely correct. That's how well you know me. I am soo grateful and wonder how we got this far without each other??? You know me like no one else. I am soo happy to have the honor of your friendship. Let me see.....other "okay" things??? Well thanks to all the amazing musicians out there. I couldn't live without music. Alright that's about that.



Unfortunately, once again, I had and toughen up. I am still, till this day devastated that people who you thought you knew so well, aren't at all what they seemed to be. I hate the fact that I have to now not be free spirit with everyone and can't let everything out to everyone. Even the people that you trusted most. I had my trust, and my heart horribly battered as a handful of my "so called good friends" turned on me. I can't describe the type of pain that the words that were said to me and the people that did this and how broken they made me. I am now very weary of who I trust. It's sad. I never used to be like this. But wow after being backstabben from a group of girls in your hometown of Pittsburgh because of rumors and gossip, I learned they weren't even worth my friendship. Soo immature that not a one of them had or have ever even called me to tell me the TRUTH on why this all went on. It still pains me but I know that NO ONE TALKS ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE OR IS JUST BLATANTLY MEAN TO THEM UNLESS THEY HAVE SERIOUS JEALOUSY ISSUES WITH THEM. So in return I got stronger, skin got a little thicker, and am honored to be your topic of conversation. As much as I wish I would forget you all, I never will, and as much as I love you all and that will never change, what did change is the way I look at you. You used to be soo beautiful and kind to me. Now you all look like unattractive, evil, kneiving, selfish souls. Something I would never want to be or be surrounded by. And as many tears I still waste on the hurt you brought and still bring to me, I do know, in the long run, WHAT COMES AROUND GOES AROUND. BIG TIME!

That's my 2010 and that's why I am pretty happy it has finally come to an end. To my people-I love you all soo much you have no idea. To my enemies-haha thanks for what you did. You actually made me a hell of a lot stronger and I will never let people like you into my life ever again. I'm better than this.

Peace & Happy 2011 my darling readers!!!
S

Credit in the Straight World

This may be a tad too late but hey, it's never too late to give Thanks in honor of Thanksgiving....right? Well I do have a ton to be thank for so let's get started:

1. I'm still alive

2. My dad made it out of a horrific motorcycle accident and now back home and walked away from all of it with just a slight limp.

3. I'm still alive

4. My sister Doody

5. My awesome awesome sorority sisters, Aaron, Ryan, Christopher, ......you know who you all are.

6. G, just thanks for being you and the endless laughter we share

7. More in touch with God

8. Eminem for helping me and a lot of others with his beautiful lyrics and music. I can't imagine the last 2 years without you always in my CD player.

9. Taylor Swift for making me smile everyday, no matter how bad it may be. Putting Taylor on and singing along with her awesome teen level lyrics

10 For someone making it this far, for someone trying to well, for all of going through our life long recovery routes. (R.I.P. Em......I hope you are soo happy and free where ever you may be)

11. To share thanksgiving with my fam.

12. To be able to have this little blog and awesome fans that I can write to a lot no matter what the subject. xoxoxoxoxo

Okay it's late......I thought I had a lot more but maybe not. What are you all thankful for?

Peace&Love

S

Just in Time to See the Bus Fly By

It's the baby....Gia Francesca!!!
It's finally here.....and I'm sure you're wondering just what is finally here! Mario: Saved by the Baby has begun tonight on VH1, 10:30pm est. This is actually a super fun show that goes back to late in the pregnancy of Courtney Mazza and Mario Lopez, showing all the ups and downs and in betweens! See now I am watching this show but don't go on thinking I have changed my ways and havew started watching TV. No sir! Courtney was actually a fellow classmate/dance major with me at Rogers(our middle school), CAPA(our high school), and after school classes at CLO(Civic Light Opera). This is soo great watching her be just as funny as always and boobalicious as always hahaha.








**Julio Cesar Chavez(her freaking ADORABLE pup!)


On this episode we were kind of just introduced to the couple who has been dating like forever now. Court was working on Broadway and Mario came in to do a guest starring role in A Chorus Line and that's how they met. Courtney has one of the best voices in the world but besides the fact that she can sing an opera like there is no tomorrow, there is something else that is my favorite fact about her voice. She can make her voice into any animal or bug that you request her to hahahaha!!! Freaking awesome! I always remember sitting in the hallway warming up and stretching and Court would just start making these crazy loud bird, monkey, rooster, whatever, noises that would echo through the school. Loved it! Anyways besides that she is a very talented girl/woman and even while in high school, won 2 Gene Kelly Awards for Best Actress. Just exceptional on stage. So basically being a fan of this page means that you are legally binded to watch this half hour reality show. And if you're like me and not too keen on reality shows and basically TV in general......just suck it up and do it. I actually LOVE the show and that might also have to do with the fact that I ADORE Courtney and you will too!!! I promise!

MARIO LOPEZ: SAVED BY THE BABY

MONDAY NIGHTS

ON VH1 10:30PM EST!!!

Peace & Love
S

With Pictures of Me and a List of my Friends

Facebook.....what have you done to the world?!?! As I was almost at 1000 friends earlier this spring/summer, I noticed that something was wrong. Do I know ALL these people(well actually yes to a point of if "knowing" is passing them at a bar or having 1 mutual friend whom you haven't spoken to in years.) Then there was the whole Farmville incident. I had a huge problem with this whatever it was so I started deleting people who played that game or collected sheep or whatever you do on there. Then I noticed the massive amounts of fake people who would request my "friendship". And BTW, once again I will announce, my life is far less exciting then some of those make it out to be so you're definitely not going to find any crazy secrets or facts that aren't already apparent. I started deleting most info from my profile and cleaned out a lot of my friends list(which I am still doing). Even though having 666 friends for a while was super cool. I barely post photos anymore and I'm considering just taking the whole thing down. FB, you and I had a good almost 6 year run. I think it may be time to break up.

But......what was life like pre facebook? I don't even think I can recall! I got it my final year of college and I've watched it evolve into this devious, social stalking scene! It used to be so pure and innocent. No news feed, no kids that didn't have a valid college email. Now we have 8 year olds running around and gosh only knows what the teenagers of the world are doing on here. Eck! Imagine being in HS and having this? I already felt awkward enough!!! I bet kids that are "going out" breakup via FB Wall. Ohh the horror! I recently had a friend of mine that deleted her profile due to getting into 'fb zone out' periods that would last up to 4-6 hours. You know like when you sign on and 5 hours later you have no idea who's profile you're even looking at and why! It happens to the best of us. I truly can say I don't use FB too often anymore but that is because I have another online addiction called shopping, right now. I don't know which is worse. Whatever.

The worst is when you are obnoxiously asked out or talking to someone at a party and instead of getting asked for your phone number or asking for theirs, you find yourself giving out your full name or visa versa so you can find each other on facebook. It's sooo classy. Totally turns me on to go home that evening and look this new hot boy up to find pics of him blacked out with his buddies. HOT! And I can't say much about mine either. I may not drink now but ohh did I used to. Definitely not the cute way either, more like the alcoholic way. Another obnoxious thing is the guys actually may be worse stalkers than the girls! I once was on a 1st date and even though this kid and I continued to date for a while, it was initially quite weird. I believe he took a god 3-5 hours memorizing everything about me from my facebook profile then proceeded to get drunk and would accidentally slip facts about me out. Ohh see like that is the perfect example of why social networking should sometimes be forbidden. Anyways I'm over it. I've been over it but the only thing is that I've made the best online buddies from random pages that I wrote on or shit. People that I have met through interests. Such as having the same favorite band to having the same favorite tennis player(what up to my Nadal peeps!)

So what do you think? Time to retire? Or just let the stupid thing sit there and use the messaging system? I would, of course, have to keep "And Who Are You Again?" up until I figure out how to follow and get followers through Blogger. I have an email address that I love to use and a telephone number too. And I am pretty close to using those as my only communication. Does everyone feel like I do? I know i quit myspace way before everyone else but that thing was just on a whole other stalking level and contained real stalkers. (I loved that you got a profile song though and I think that's one reason why I kept it for the time I did. Ohh and my AWESOME Britney Spears background and Brit themed profile. Love her! People might have mistaken it for a Britney fan site. Very possible hahaha.) I hope you all consider this as well. Facebook Free! yah!

Peace & Love
S